Feeling Bitter.

[Blueskies40]

I've got to the age of 41, married with 3 children yet I'm still carrying anger, bitterness and sadness from my childhood. It's affecting me still after all of this time. I was 7 and he was 16 ( my dads brother ) I was made to touch him on many occasions. Afterwards I'd be in the back seat going home with my parents and I so wanted to tell them, the words never came out until I was 15 and couldn't stand it any longer so I took a huge overdose. My parents were called to the hospital and that was the night it all tumbled out. Nothing was done by my parents and it was never spoken about again, until recently. I was so mad that I asked dad why nothing was done. He said it would have killed my nan if it had come out. To be honest I'm more angry with mum and dad for doing nothing than I am with him. They see him daily and laugh with him. It makes me so angry....:

[ladybirder]

Should have been Ummmm.

[jennyjoan]

Blue skies - a thing like that happened to me ( I am now over 60) but it happened at a friend of mine's uncle's house who wanted to show his upstairs bathroom and bedroom. I was 10 and she was 8 - anyway an unpleasant thing happened and I told my mum who was incensed and went round to his sister-in-law (I don't know if she ever directed anything to him). She never told my dad in fact I would say she never told anybody else. So it was swept under the carpet. But thank god I have never harboured bitterness - learn to accept and stop crucifying yourself - your only making yourself ill. There were other episodes from oul uncles who fancied themselves - those I kept them to myself. Still only 10 years old and naive. Don't let what happen mar the next part of your life. Cos they're not worth it JjCon

[ummmm]

LB...things were still swept under the carpet in the 70's/80's.

[jourdain2]

Even more so in the mid-60's Ummmm. No 'Talking therapy' available either.

Jennyjoan is right, these people are not worth handicapping your life for. I wish I could have understood things and cleared them earlier than I did on my own. :)

Blueskies - thank you for your post, I had not thought about my experience for many years and because I took it out and examined it again, I have put it very finally to rest.

[woofgang]

things were swept under the carpet more recently than 70's 80's.....not me but someone I know :(

[ummmm]

I think people just go into denial.

[Blueskies40]

Thank you for all your replies. Very much appreciated xxx

[petal54]

I think this happens all too often in families!I hope you can find some inner peace if nothing else