I lost my beautiful Yasmin in February afc,and,2 other family pets over the years. The shock and grief is really all consuming at times.Like you found out today,it's the little things that can get to you unexpectedly. I found little paw prints on furniture etc.after he died,and I can't bring myself to clean them off still. You'll be very easily tearful for a while,but,you slowly find you can cope better. It def does help to talk about them and remember all their funny wee ways.Don't expect too much of yourself too soon,we all need however much time it takes x