How To Get Back The Friend Who Blocked Me?

[Yopa]

I've been going through a lot recently. I've been really stressed and ill. I've had panic attacks since the summer and I had a lot going on in my personal life. I've had a huge break-down. Through all this I talked to my best friend who lives in another country. It was really nice to have someone who supported my emotionally and told me to be strong. But one month ago he stopped talking to me all of a sudden. I was hurt as I didn't know what my fault was. Instead of leaving him alone I started to act like a mad hysterical person and texted him everyday until he finally responded and told me that it was difficult for him to hear about my problems all day everyday and he had his own problems too and I was a bit too much. I told him I was sorry and I promised to not talk about my problems with him anymore and finally we made up. And I tried my best not to talk about my problems with him anymore as I knew it was really my fault. I thought everything was good between us but then again he wouldn't reply my messages as often as before and then one day I woke up to see that he'd blocked me. He'd left me a message saying that he could see I was going through things and he thought he needed to keep his distance and that he'd contact me again sometime in the future.
I did another bad thing after I saw he'd blocked me. I used my other phone and texted him. I told him seeing that he decided to leave me when I was going through a lot hurt me and broke my heart a lot but I understood why he did it. And that he was my good friend and I'd miss him. I told him I knew him well enough to say that he'd never try to get in touch with me again despite of what he told me and wished him all the best in the world and then I said that I was sorry for what I did to him.
I never got a response again. The truth is I remember how our friendship was before I became troubled and ill. I really miss him. I want him back in my life. But there's a problem that he lives in another country and I can't go to talk to him in person one day and try to make it right. I want to take my time and try to solve my problems and get back my health and give him sometime too and then try to text him again with another number if it's necessary to ask him to forgive me. He means a lot to me. I can't imagine going on without him never ever being in my life again.
Do you think is this the right thing to do? Shall I leave him alone forever or shall I try my chance one more time when I'm finally fine and have put all my problems behind?

[Bobbisox1]

Just leave him be for a while till you’re fully back to your happy place yopa

[emmie]

I would leave him alone for a while, he has got problems of his own most likely. Your constant texting won't help him.. Be cool for a time until you have sorted out some of your own problems, then maybe try once more, if no response then call it a day.

[pastafreak]

I'd leave him be for now, concentrate on yourself. If you continue to try contacting him, it might be viewed as stalking...no matter how good your intentions may be.

[Yopa]

Thank you all for your response. They are helpful :) I'd be happy to hear other asnwers too :)

[Bobbisox1]

Yopa is it that you’re wanting someone to tell you differently though?

[elliemay1]

I'm just wondering if you have any other friend/friends that you can talk to in the meantime

[Mozz71]

Perhaps he got tired of your refusal to use paragraphs?

(Cheap shot! Seriously, let him go. People who disappear when they're most needed aren't worth your time)

[Yopa]

No I don't want to hear different responses but it's like people have different opinions and I'd like to hear how different people think about the same situations.
And yeah, I have other friends too. But he was really a special friend. Someone who's lack of presence in my life is felt so much. Though I'm not gonna try to talk to him anytime soon. I think the problem is I felt close to him so much and this put a lot of pressure on him because he believed I'm a bit attached. I'm just so hurt that he blocked me like if he'd told me he didn't want to talk to me at all I would've respected his decision.

[elliemay1]

//He'd left me a message saying that he could see I was going through things and he thought he needed to keep his distance and that he'd contact me again sometime in the future.//
At least he gave you the reason why he blocked you.