Need Advice

[Heretoaskandansw]

Hi. So I couldn't find a better topic for my question. I have to go with ChatterBank. Long story short. I'm a 22-year-old woman. I've achieved a few things I don't want to brag about, but I'm just going to mention them briefly to describe my situation. I've self-published a book, have had a few acting gigs, I paint, I have a philosophy and literature A level certificate from Oxford and I used to teach English to foreign students. I speak 4 languages besides my mother tongue. Anyways, in 2019 when the Covid started I gradually became lazy and I dropped out of college (I was studying fisheries science) in 2021, because I've always wanted to become an actress despite my parents' disapproval. I didn't have enough money to move abroad, but I really wanted to since I saw no prospect in acting in my country. 4 months ago I moved to Italy. My parents told me that if I pursued any degree except for acting they'd support me. So I chose a BA in Italian history knowing I'd switch to a BA in acting as soon as I'll settle and raise some money. I've found a job as a receptionist in a surfing school in Sardinia which starts on March. So far everything sounds awesome. But the thing is that since attendance in the Italian history classes are not obligatory in all these months I've hardly ever gone to the university. I find it hard to focus or study. I'm so lazy I can't get out of bed and everything I do is watching stupid sitcoms for hours. I've lost weight because I don't trouble myself cooking something to survive. I'm pathetic and I don't know how to fix this. Most of my laziness is because of the cold. Cheap apartments in Italy don't have a proper central heating and my landlord took my electric heater away. I dread to get out of bed and change my clothes. I can lock myself indoors for weeks. Today I was supposed to go to the university to ask a question and I just overslept even though I wasn't tired. How can I change?

[Buenchico]

Try this online self-assessment tool for depression:
https://assets.nhs.uk/tools/self-assessments/index.mob.html?variant=42

If, as I suspect, it suggests that you're clinically depressed, you need to seek medical advice. This might then become relevant:
https://www.nhs.uk/mental-health/conditions/clinical-depression/treatment/

[rowanwitch]

You also need to reassess your skill set, and see where it can take you. Not fanciful ideas but things that are realistic options. Just getting a sense of direction can help.

[Heretoaskandansw]

Buenchico/ I think it's seasonal depression. Every year during winter I feel this way and it goes away once the weather gets warmer. Need to find a way to feel better when it's cold.

[Heretoaskandansw]

Rowanwitch/ I want to be an actress and I've taken acting classes back in my country. But to be a good actor everybody needs to boost their skills in other things they might be good at. I'm good at learning languages and writing and painting boost my creativity which is fundamental for acting. Here in Italy I attended an acting workshop. I've also been cycling, rollerblading and swimming since I was little. Right now I just want to start my job and save money for the acting school. The problem is that all the irrelevant "qualifications" in my CV such as "Italian history" or "Fisheries science" were all forced into my life by my parents. Maybe that's why I feel so frustrated.

[bookbinder]

Find yourself a partner, male or female, who can share your life and can give you a gee-up when you need it.

[Heretoaskandansw]

Bookbinder/ Yes, I'd love to and I really need a partner in my life right now. But I can't seem to be able to find anyone who likes me. I'm not ugly. Just the average girl next-door. But I think I'm kind of eccentric and that's what unattractive about me.