my nanny's funeral

[gingerflaps]

hi everyone, if u read my previous posts in here then u will know wot im on about. i would just like to tell you all that it was my nanny's funeral yesterday. It was very sad, we had a service in a big church, then we went down to the crem and then to a pub. I found a lovly poem in the end, i wrote it in a card. I was really nice to see my family again, a lot of them i havnt seen for years, i just wished it was under better cercumstances. But im gonna visit them alot more now i have their numbers. After the pub i went back to my grandad's house and it REALLY hit me then, as i walked through the door i could smell my nanny's firmiliar smell, and i had a realistic vision of her hobbling through the kitchen door to greet me and ask me if i wanted a cuppa tea, that was quite hard and had to fight back the tears. I want to say thankyou for everyone's support at this difficult time. katie xxx

[Buddy]

Brought tears to my eyes - I know what you are talking about.Arent Nannies just the best - you know them all your life.I now am so grateful she was part of her life - she was a special lady and I am so proud I was part of her life.

You'll get there but as you see it doesnt take much!!!

Much love 

[Buddy]

Of course I meant she was part of my life.

I was thinking of you tho didnt know the date. xxx

[pompomfairy]

im glad you got throught the funeral ok i know its really hard saying goodbye to sum1 you love so much.it will get easier over time and you will always remember teh good time you had with her all the best -x-x-jenni-x-x-

[hopalong]

I lost my very suddenly last November (2004).  It was very hard. Life its getting easier life goes on but I just want the first year over with.  The nearer the first anniversery gets the slower time seems to get.  I am constantly saying to myself 'this this last year' I know I will feel much better once the fist year is over with

[hopalong]

my post should have read I lost my mum very suddenly last Nomember.....

[Buddy]

Hopalong - it believe it or not becomes a little more bearable once all the first anniversaries are over.I feel I have now accepted it.My advice to you would be go with the flow and things will pick up - honestly!! 

[gingerflaps]

thanx for ur answers. I have a picture of my nan in a frame on my tv in my spare bedroom, a place where i go alone to chill out (i'm in here now). I lost my other nanny 3 yrs ago, and i was a complete mess, i went to see her in the chapel of rest because i was very very close to her. I wanted to go and see this nanny because i was in denial for a few days before the funeral, but i decided against it in the end, i thought 'the less people that touch her and fuss around with her, the better'. I still have to tell myself its real and she's not coming back, but i think thats all part of the grieving process. once again thankyou for your thoughts, i'm so glad i have people i can open up to and chat with because your so understanding.  thankyou  xxx  katie

[hopalong]

Thanks buddy for your kind words

[lozzzz]

hi sweetie,hope you feel a little better in yourself now,I expect your nan would tell you not to be sad and remember all the good times you had,and remember that your grandad is still here and will need support which you can give him,it will get better.I hope the funeral was nice,which might sound odd,but my dad had a cracking funeral and he would have been well chuffed to have seen all the people that turned up,even 4 of the nurses at the hospital came..welling up a bit now myself.

[natalie_1982]

Hi Katie, I haven't been on here too much lately and didn't know about your nan, I'm really sorry for you and send you lots of love :) X

I lost my grandad when I was very young (7 years old) and I still miss him, but I often sit and think and laugh about the silly things he did.  My nan is 78 now and has Altzheimers, my other nan is in her 70's and very fit and healthy but my other grandad has had many strokes and pneumonia in the past few years.  Recently I have been getting very thoughtful about life and stuff as my nan is so poorly, like she's not my nan anymore really it's just her body with someone else's mind.  It's made me realise what a lucky lucky person I am that I have known these people.  I know they won't be around forever and I love them all so much and try to care as much as I can especially for my poorly nan and I feel so blessed that she's my nan.  Sorry if this isn't going anywhere or am not making sense, but I think that although you must be feeling so sad at the moment, you will look back and smile at the good times you had together.  My boyfriend doesn't have any grandparents and lost his last at 16 so they never saw him become a man.  I hope my grandad would be proud of me as a woman and what I have made of my life, and I am so lucky that the grandparents that are alive are here to enjoy it with me.

Sorry for all that rambling honey, I wish you all the best in the world and I'm sure you nan would be so proud to have such a caring grandaughter as you X X