Hello ChocolatChip

[burston]

How are you since we last spoke online. Hope you are feeling a bit better about yourself now. Are you back at work and are things any better.

[ChocolatChip]

Hi there, burston.
I'm not grreat at alll unfortunately. I'm supposed to be at work in the next hour or so and I'm absolutely dreading it.
I've been having panic attacks all weekend, and now the moments here all I want to do is run away and cry.
I went out for a walk yesterday and that took my mind of things. But only made me feel better for the time I was out, and a short time after.
Sadly, my referral will nnot come through until next week. (Let alone an actual date) So I'm at a completely loss of how I'm going to cope.
I thought about taking holiday time, but I feel so guilty, since I only started about 2 months ago.
Why can't I be struck down with illness? Or a car for that matter? Anything to stop me from going.
Sorry I'm rambling. But I'm so terrified.

[burston]

Im so sorry you are feeling so down. I really think you need to talk to someone like the Samaritans until your appointment comes through. Try not to stress too much about work. We all dread going. Im going through a bad patch at work at the moment too but at the end of the day we are all there just to earn money so make the most of it but if you dread it that much you should change your job. You must have some talents which you could put to good use, and one day you will actually enjoy what you do. I really hope so as no one deserves to be so unhappy. God Bless You xx