Having SERIOUS problems getting over my fiance's past? PLEASE HELP!!!

[jayden1119]

Please give me advice before I drive myself insane.

My fiance and I met when we were kids.
We started dating when I was 14, he was my first love.
Him and I were off an on from the time I was 15-17 and in those two years he wasn't only with me, apparently he was sleeping with girls I went to school with. (I just started finding all this out last year, because I am friends NOW with some of the women he's been with and I had NO CLUE, it was quite embarrassing when my new girlfriends were telling me they slept with my childs father years ago) when him and I were still dating.

Now, we are much older, we have two children, I love him with all my heart, he's faithful, he's good to me, he's great.

After all this time, he finally took me to a very special place last week and got down on one knee with a ring and proposed. I couldn't believe it. It made me so happy. We are now engaged, and for some odd reason I keep being reminded of all these chicks that he slept with when we were young. I know it was a decade ago but WOW why is it so hard for me? I love him so much and thinking of him with these girls I know KILLS me. It completely grosses me out.

I can't get these visions out of my head or the fact that when we were young while i was sitting at home waiting for him to call he was having sex with these random girls!! Some of them were just not the best of people either. I have had talks with him and he always says "OMG it was soo long ago I'm sorry" Somehow I still feel betrayed?? I can't get it out of my head, he's apologized a million times but I've got to figure out how to let this go?

I love him with all my heart and our children and I want to be married but when we go around our friends and someone brings up another girl that is in our group of friends it sucks because all I think about is "oh thats one of the girls he slept with, when i used to think i was the 'only one'"

I know I probably sound so stupid....but this really is bothering me..
HELP!

[Brinjal]

The past is exactly that. Move on. Seriously the only one. As long as you are the only from since you have been together properly. Dont you have a past.

[factor-fiction]

I think it's not uncommon for teenagers to get as much'action' as they can. In fact many people carry on this way for a bit longer , for example if at university. I reckon quite a lot of people on AB would secretly or openly admit to youthful philandering or whatever the female equivalent is. The main thing is he has settled down with you

[tenrec]

Don't let the past ruin the future. Good luck.

[johnk]

I agree with all the previous answers. If the others weren't 'nice' as you say did they really sleep with him? Whenever you meet any them be content because you're the one he wants to stay with forever.

[Kiki-frog]

////Whenever you meet any them be content because you're the one he wants to stay with forever////

These are very wise words from John. Your fiance has chosen to commit to YOU and no one else. Try to remind yourself of this every time those niggling demons surface.