Alcohol - Appetite Increase

[Baby_Sham]

For one reason or another I have had to knock alcohol on the head, but since doing so (I am still very early days) I have noticed a massive increase in appetite.
I would have thought it was the other way round, but does anyone know if this is 'normal'?

[murraymints]

Baby...don't you think that !!! ..you must stay focused and positive...one day at a time....have you considered AA for support ?

[chrissa1]

I have always thought Diazapam was blooming useless. If they haven't worked and you just feel you are being forced to take pills that are obviously not changing anything, then I understand why you don't like taking pills.
It's when the pills that you are taking actually make you feel better that it becomes easier.

[Baby_Sham]

Anne, I have to defend him here (don't usually) but I can see how it's easy to blame him, and it really isn't his fault.
He doesn't drink, at all, yet I've spent the past couple of years manipulating situations so he buys me wine, almost for a quiet life. It's only recently it's become apparent that I have an 'issue', and he will no longer buy anything for me.
The kids are at my parents just because it's half term and they are spending it with nanny and grandad. Nothing else.
Despite how it comes across, my children are not effected by my problems - my parents make sure of that.
My partner drops them off at school in the morning, and my Dad picks them up every single day. I never drink around them.

I realise I am an awful person and an awful mother for being like this, but I've always kind of had my parents and my partner to 'be there', should I screw up. Awful, I know, but that's just how I think once I've had a drink :-(

[DTCwordfan]

hey, Baby Sham, you are on here, chatting and raising your concerns. That takes guts - so, you are not a lost cause. Anything but.

Now, what's your goal for tonight and tomorrow? We're on here, well somebody is, if you need help in the middle of the night.

You're well on the way; yes, there will be the step back but if we can help you go three or four forward, we are taking you nearer to breaking this cycle.

[Tilly2]

Aww, abysham you do have a problem and you don't need people telling you you are a hopeless case.

[Baby_Sham]

MM, you are so sweet. I did go to an AA meeting, just last week in fact, but I felt really out of place. Everyone seemed to know each other, they were all chatting and laughing. I just felt stupid, and my anxiety seemed to reach it's peak :-(

[chrissa1]

You are NOT an awful person and don't for one minute, think you are. You have a problem that can be solved with a lot of help from your doctor and your partner.

[anneasquith]

never a lost cause................because you have admitted to being an alcoholic. at least on AB. if you want/know you must stop, then get the phone book out and you will find numerous agencies you can discuss your issue with,

[Tilly2]

Sorry, I made a mess of that ^.

You don't want judgmental people on here telling you what you should and shouldn't do. Get some proper help from professionals. Go to AA.

[Baby_Sham]

Dt, it's too late tonight I'm afraid :-(
My goal for tomorrow is to continue with my medication and keep myself busy. It's not easy though, because I'm alone all day.
I did recently start up a hobby, but I quickly got bored, and found myself using alcohol to pass the time of day.
I don't really have any friends, so I can't even get out and socialise.

Sorry, I sound like a proper sad case, I know. I don't mean to, I just don't really know what to do. I can't seem to keep myself occupied. There's only so much housework you can do! :)

[murraymints]

Are you on your own normally at nights ? If so with the kids away you have to keep occupied..spring clean, empty / tidy wardrobes....and try to get some exercise through the day...go for brisk walk in local park maybe... go to library and read...walk back....

[Baby_Sham]

Thanks. You're all so kind and supportive, but I just don't find that with AA.
I phoned them, left a message, and someone phoned me back. He was lovely, really caring and understanding, but the group was completely different.
It seemed as though many of them were there to have a chat and a cup of tea.
I just felt a bit lost.

[chrissa1]

Nobody is being judgemental, Tilly. I am just trying to help, having gone through the same thing myself, 6 years ago.

[Baby_Sham]

During term time the kids are here, but they're at my parents for a week this week, and I'm spending most nights on my own.
I can't blame my partner, he has work to do, but I suppose alcohol has always been my 'company' - as pathetic as that sounds :-/

[anneasquith]

tilly, im sorry if you think im being judgemental, but I maybe best leaving this thread, but I do wish BS the very best of luck .

[Baby_Sham]

Tilly, it's ok, I understood what you meant :)

[murraymints]

Even better....come and spring clean my house !!! Lol.....think of AA meetings like AB ...you'll very soon work out who's who and you'll be with people who understand and you'll make new friends !! You must not put yourself down...you're worth more than that ..xx

[Baby_Sham]

No, no one is being judgmental.
I need reality. There's no point sugar-coating things.

[Baby_Sham]

MM, haha! :) That's the beauty of AB though, we can say what we want and know we won't have to face each other at any time :-)

[DTCwordfan]

As you are doing here in communicating about it - try keeping a diary and write extensively[i about what you are feeling and your emotions....apart from soaking up time, it may help structure your thinking, what questions to ask of us, your doctors, family, whoever and, maybe, of immense value to others facing your challenges.......

Baby Sham, we feel for you, many of us having had similar challenges, others (such as myself, different ones - not this form or drugs dependency) with many types of dependency or depression - as I said, your ability to chat about it is a [i] massive] step forward.......