Clinic

[queenofmean]

Had my diabetes Clinic Visit today. Weight still the same, BP up but not as high as usual when I'm at clinc (that's an improvement!) I saw one of the head doctors who was utterly brilliant. He took into consideration what I've been through and he said even though I've been through a lot he was impressed at my hbA1c being at 8.4 or 68 (I'm normally around 7.3 or 70, where they want me at) but he said he doesn't want to rush me into fixing everything immediately but he wants me to do it in stages, firstly by changing my timings of my insulin so going to try that but I'm to start with one meal at a time so lunch tomorrow will give that a bash. Got a nice new shiny meter too, so all in all after bracing myself for the worst I got off lightly. He even said he was proud of me as most patients he sees give up in times of trouble but he said after looking at my diary, I hadn't given up the fight and it was clear I was still fighting to gain control.
Podiatrist went well too 2 happy toes and a happy me :) and a relatively happy diabetes team.

Hope you are all well
Q xx

[Baldric]

Good news, keep it up, you're doing well.

[marval]

That is good news queenie, well done for the hard work you have put in. I am well apart from a stupid chest infection, which hopefully the antibiotics will clear up.

[tonyav]

Well done, Queenie. Keep at it gal.

[queenofmean]

Thank you Baldric and Marval. I'm surprised how well I'm doing though. I have counselling next week so hoping that will sort out these darn panic attacks as that plays on my mind a lot.
There is loads of bugs going around, fingers crossed for a speedy recovery and I hope the antibiotics kick in soon

[queenofmean]

Thank ya Tone. I will do, I've set myself a target...they want me back in 4 months instead of 6 but in the time I want to turn it all around. I know I can do it I have the skill set and I'm prepared to use it.

[tonyav]

Thats it, keep thinking positive Queenie.

[queenofmean]

I will do my hardest :)

[Butterbun]

That's the spirit Queenie. I wish you well.xx

[Peter Pedant]

Good well done

one of my neighbours used to run at 20 !!
but he didnt do as well as you

[queenofmean]

Thank you Butterbun and Peter Pedant.

When I was ill (self inflicted good 10years ago) I ran at Hi a lot and it's not a pleasant experience. I don't understand those that don't care about their health. But I do understand that people struggle with the condition but I just wish they would realise it's ok and to ask for help. 20 isn't great but it can be fixed in less than a day if you try. There has been times when I've thought I can't do this but there is so much at stake of it goes wrong and I've been there and I won't go back so I will always try try and try again.

[Mamyalynne]

Glad to hear your positive news Queenie.x

[choux]

Having seen some of your previous posts I think you are to be congratulated. If you fight you have a chance of winning. You are going in the right direction, good luck for the future.

[anneasquith]

You're hard work and commitment has paid off. Well done Queenie. And mum would be delighted :-)

[queenofmean]

Thank you Amaya, Choux and Anne.
I thought being diabetic from a young age and and having nearly 25 years in the field, things would prepare me for everything but nothing prepares you for that. But I've done well and I will keep going until I'm back in control, fully. There's things I'd like to do but until I'm back in my target range it isn't possible.

But Anne you are right she would be. I know what she would say right now. That it didn't matter, these things happen, but keep trying and I'd get there in time. The biggest obstacle I think was getting myself in the door at the hospital. I've never left so quick though!

[anneasquith]

I'm pleased '' the toes" are behaving. :-)

[queenofmean]

Lol, me too. They were a bit problematic a few weeks ago but it never came to much. But it's good to not be constantly on antibiotics and forever at the dr! It's progress, plus I'll be happy to wear pretty sandals in the summer and paint my tootsies :)

[choux]

It is obvious (to me) how much you thought of your dear mum. I am sure she would be proud of you.

[queenofmean]

Aww thank you Choux, I love her to bits and I miss her so so much but I often talk to her like she's here. I know she will look after me in spirit. Dad and quite a few other people have said she lives on in me. So I take comfort in that I've got part of her wherever I go. She would, even I'm proud of me the things that I've stepped up and dealt with lately, although she'd kill me if she saw the state of the house but this past week I've not been around to give it a full blitz but I'm sure she would forgive me, especially as I spend my time looking after dad.

[choux]

I think I am old enough to be your grandmother, but I still miss my dear mum too. Sod the state of house, it is the people that matter ;)

[queenofmean]

Aww bless you Choux. You are only as old as you feel! Haha that's my thoughts exactly but Tuesday is pencilled in for a slight clean in parts. But it's true people do matter. I worry when dad is a minute late home and things.

Anyway bed time for me early start tomorrow, well today shall we say. Night night xx