I'm Putting My Head Above The Parapet Here

[nailit]

But I've never made any bones about the fact that I'm a functioning alcoholic / got a drink problem/ reliant on alcohol to see me through
Had long periods of time sober...& can honestly say that I was never happy.

I just think that we are all reliant on 'something' to see us through this thing called life.
Better to walk with a crutch than to not walk at all.

I often wake with that anxiety that has to check posts, phone calls, texts etc because I know that somewhere I might have offended someone without knowing.

Just a rant because I'm p$$ed again.
And hate myself again,

Anyway, we are all addicted to something....cigs, food, porn, drugs, social media!!!!

[Mamyalynne]

You know and admit your addiction, many don't - the only person who can change it is you and you have to want to change.

So I for one won't nag you but wish you well with your choices.

[Atheist]

Nailit; and some are addicted to religion; that's their crutch?

[nailit]

Once saw a shrink in my early days that told me that i was an addict while he puffed on one cig after another...

thought then that something wasnt right!

[Bobbisox1]

Nailit there’s been far worse offence that anything I’ve seen of yours on here , you shouldn’t be judged for anything you do unless you’ve deliberately set out to hurt someone ,if it’s on here? Well then use the ‘*** ‘rule , we are but pixels on a screen,I hope you find peace very soon

[Bobbisox1]

.s.o.d it ?
What’s wrong with saying that when crap is allowed!!

[nailit]

Mamy
.//the only person who can change it is you and you have to want to change//
I know that You mean well, Trust me I do!
Heard it a million times though....

[jno]

you were never happy when you were sober and you hate yourself now you're drunk?

Is is possible the problem has nothing to do with alcohol?

[davebro]

I've been drinking more this past year. Maybe not addicted (I can go days without) but probably dependent.

Is it the genes? My dad was addicted to tobacco.

[Mamyalynne]

Yes, I know you've heard it far too often, which is why I won't nag you to change.

You don't want to.

[royfromaus]

I can honestly say I am not addicted to anything.

[nailit]

I'm seriously considering exeting this life.
Maneged to stash a supply of sleepers.
Not just because of my mum, it just sucks!
Family on my case.
I COULDNT do any more
Im an alcoholic.
Cant match up to peoples expectations.
Sick of been a addict.
Sick of been told to do this and that and everything will be better...
***, it wasnt!

Just had enough.
And then the religious would condemm me to hell for it.

[davebro]

Suicide? That's the last thing I'd do!

[nailit]

//Yes, I know you've heard it far too often, which is why I won't nag you to change.
You don't want to.//

Really?
FGS I hate been me.

[royfromaus]

Why would you even care what the religious think?

If family are on your case...ignore them. I ignore the members of my family that try and create grief.

[Mamyalynne]

Would I e wasting my time to ask you to reach out for help?

I don't want you to die.

[Tilly2]

...but the food bank needs you. You have a job to do!

[tiggerblue10]

What about your new grandchild? Please think about your immediate family before you make a decision that will destroy their lives.

I've felt like ending it all at various times in my life and recently too but I've thought about my son and parents and that's brought me back down to earth.

[nailit]

Im sorry.
I just hate been me...............................................................................................................

[nailit]

My heads knackered.

[tamborine]

Well I would be upset! Throw those pills down the loo