I Hate Myself

[Roughquest]

Hi, I drove 250 miles to see my family most of whom I have not seen for over a year. I stayed with my sister and her husband which was great, and I was so excited to see everyone again. But my sis and bro in law cooked a meal for me and one of my brothers and a friend of their's. Well the evening was going well and the wine was flowing, my brother left to go home and that left me with this friend of their's and we were flirting rather badly (he told me I was a good kisser lol!), he is married with children but his other half is away in Oz and well - we started kissing and stuff. Then my bro in law got really angry with me, this guy left, and then both my sis and her husband had a real go at me for behaving in such a way and in my drunken speech i kept saying 'it takes 2 to tango' but they made me feel like it was my fault 'throwing myself at him'. We had all been drinking and I just got up and was about to go to bed and my brother in law ran upstairs got all my clothes and toiletries and threw them out onto the front lawn. He told me to leave. I know I have hurt my sis terribly, I still have a lot of my things at their house, but not sure how to approach them to get them to send it on, I love my sister and bro in law and we get on really well, but I know I have behaved badly, but I am sat here feeling sorry for myself and disgusted with myself, I know they hate me but they have not even contacted me to see if I reached home in one piece!

I feel utterly dreadful and sick to the stomach I miss my family so much. I don't think they will ever talk to me again.They don't care about me.

RQ x

[Ethmer]

So you got drunk and made a spectacle of yourself. That is no excuse for your brother-in-law to respond the way he did.

There may be problems existing between your sis and brother-in-law and your actions just rang the wrong chimes under the circumstances with him.

i'd write a letter of apology addressed to your sister AND brother-in-law simply stating that your actions were a result of your drinking and that you apologize to them for your behavior and that you hope that they will be able to forgive you.

Whatever the result, don't dwell on it. It's past. We all have made mistakes in our past so you have a lot of comrades in arms.

Best Wishes.

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Simply a "rose" to brighten your day,
And maybe lessen the cares in your way;
And also, too, to help you to know,
That in knowing you, many others grow!


Ted

[bob57]

Roughquest I was just wondering how you are feeling now please let us know

as in ethmer's poem knowing you makes others grow

[Roughquest]

Not got my things back yet, my sister is still being totally bitchy towards me, lots of nasty texts, saying if I didnt collect my things they were going to send them to the charity shop. So i got my eldest brother to step in and he has picked my things up for me today. My sister never wants to speak to me again. So I am feeling terrible, my whole life is bad lately.

Ho hum

Thank you all for your kind words.

RQ x

[Roughquest]

Oh I forgot to say I text an apology saying sorry to have upset/hurt her and that I was very drunk. But she still isnt speaking to me.