Broken heart

[amazingtoxic]

What do I do? I don't understand why I feel this way. My ex and I were dating for about 2 years however throughout the r'ship they lied and I got jelous and for the last 6months of the r'ship we really didn't get on. Now it's over and my ex says we should just be friends, I don't fancy them and I know they treated me like crap but for some reason I really want to get back together. I know if we do I won't be happy as I don't fancy them but what is going on in my head. I found out that he got really drunk the other day and snogged one of my mates from uni but said it was only a laugh. I feel heartbroken. Why if i don't fancy them and knowing getting back together would be a bad idea, do I want them so badly. OH AND HOW DO I STOP FEELING SO DOWN ABOUT IT

[electricblue]

maybe you just want the idea of having a good relationship that you obviously didn't have with your ex,he was a part of your life for 2 years so is gonna be in your thoughts and you wish for the perfect partner that you wish he was but wasn't,there is good guys out there and he will come along for you when you least expect it,remember how he was and what a ar$e he was and know that things can only get better and pity the poor s0d who gets him next,don't let him get to you,hold your head up and move on,it may be hard but it WILL happen!!