Help me : (

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I need help : ( I'm so messed up at the moment in so many ways and I really don't know who to turn to. Part of the problem is that I don't really know why I'm so upset about things and why I'm doing certain things. I'll explain better: I've just come back from 3months travelling and have managed to put on a stone in weight. I don't have a particularly attractive face but I've always been able to rely on having a thin figure and fitting easily into size 10 trousers and size 8 tops (UK). None of my clothes fit now and I hate people seeing me like this. I've never ever put on weight before, and I'm aware that some of it is muscle but it a way I don't care because it still makes me look bigger. I would just starve myself (I'm that desperate) but I tried this for the morning yesterday (my first day back at work) and my stomach was rumbling so badly that it was really embarrassing and I ended up eating something. I'm totally disgusted with myself. So that's the first thing.

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hi sweetheart firstly you need to stop beating yourself up im sure you have other quailties other than once being a size 8. what size are you now? could you maybe have depression as you have had a huge adventure travelling and are now back to the normal hum drum life?