hiya mnko. i just got up this morning feeling great and i read this thread and im both shocked and sad but also optomistic that people, who really want to, can withstand a lot in life. my sis is my hero. she was so very happy with her husband and new baby when her husband fell asleep with a cigarette, he burned to death, she managed to crawl through flames with her little baby and got out. she was left with nothing. she was found naked in the street with not even a pair of pants surviving the fire. she went through a terrible time, as well as the family. But she kept going, she told me in confidence that she had a choice to try to save her husband, or save their daughter...anyway, i still think she is the bravest person i know and i hope you can be brave too and hopefully get some help. please continue to post because i for one (there will be many others)really do care.....have a great day mate!!!!!!