Hi, It certainly looks as if you are having a hard time. It is not easy to do the things you want, with the committments you have, especially after you had full time employment.
However there must have been reasons why you wanted to change direction so look at it this way
1. WHEN I pass I will be doing a really worthwhile job helping other people
2. WHEN I have pass I will have proved to myself,and other people who may have doubted me, that I can do it?
3 WHEN I have pass I will get alot of satisfaction from what I have achieved
4 When I have pass I will look back and think how the hell did I manage to do all that.
It's hard but I hope you keep on and achieve what you want to achieve and I wish you all the very best. Keep us posted on how you are doing Rgds Al