Wanting to leaving overseas - relationship strain
Hi there,
My relationship is under strain, I'm highly stressed and am feeling depressed about this situation. Quite simply, I feel heart broken. I currently live in Cape Town with my fiancee of 4 & half years. We were in UK for 18 months before coming back to SA in December 2007. She has a job, but is earning half of what she did in UK, and works longer hours. I have struggled to get work, but have been self employed since June doing bookkeeping from home until now, as I earn more this way, than a permanent job. I am earning less than I would have in UK too. I want to go back, but she doesn't, she refuses to go - says she's not ready to go back, and says I should go, and get set up. This does not work for me - if I go, I want her to go with me. Her family lives here and I personally feel they manipulate her, and mine is in the UK for now - they plan to go to US, but I do not intend going to live with my family, but to work in London, earn a good living and make a life for us. Am I wrong in wanting a better life financially for us? I do love her dearly- I'm really unhappy at my current situation in South Africa, as I do not see a bright and positive future here, we have even been broken in to with someone standing next to our bed in the middle of the night!! Yes, the UK might not be the best weather wise, but there are far more opportunities to see the world from there... What do I do? I'm so torn - I desperately want to go, but I love her and don't want to leave her behind!! My life feels like it is crashing down around me. I live for this girl... and have for the past 4 & half years!!