Hi ansme,
First of all, I hope that you are starting to feel better healthwise. Although it seems to me that you need to get yourself totally well before making any big decisions! If you have your heart set on travelling try compromising with your bf - see if he is willing to go for a shorter time, perhaps he is comitted to his job, but could take a leave of absence. You need to look into it more............where to go, how long for etc. However if he is dead set against it you will resent him in the long run if you don't go. Give him some time and get some brochures to whet his appetite!!!! Good luck!