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Got to admit I do feel a little better,thanks for all the kind words and hugs.
I feel mean feeling the way I do,I mean Hubby has got it hard,and is trying to cope with the new way of life,as am I.I just don't want to spoil it for the kids,master Aya has been a star,he has been ever so nice and helpful,funny and just generally nice to be around(even if he does say he will turn into a monster come Boxing day LOL)Miss Aya seems to have her own little bubble to live in at the moment and is distant from us,she does not chat and joke around us anymore,but I remember the teenage years and respect her wanting space to herself.
Wolf,don't be sliding like me,first step to stopping sliding is admitting that you are.I am sure people here will give you a helping hand if you want to grab hold.Hugs to you ((((()))))
Big thanks to you all,this year has been a stinker to say the least,hope 2013 is better,could it be worse???(don't answer that)
Thanks again
Love Aya B