Missing :(
last year i met this guy, at first we had a laugh just messing about talking having fun that sort of thing. everything was fine until i ended up starting to like him more. at first i liked him for his looks, then the more time i spent with him i ended up liking him for lots of different reasons. i think i actually fell in love, which has never happened before :( to me, they are perfect, and i cant stop thinking about them. simply, we met at work, and i left there for a new job afew months ago.
i thought once i was gone i would stop thinking about them, but that didnt happen. now i spend too much time thinking about him, and how much i miss him. i like the fact that were friends still, and i have some friends who are guys, but missing someone like this feels so difficult, but even thinking about being friends doesn't make sense, we're like technology friends. but because i miss so much about them i wish i could see him more. and technology is awful really, because its so easy and tempting to type something you think or feel at that time, when you know you wouldn't in person. i have a few times, and i really expected them to tell me to get lost and to stop being stupid, but he never did, and he was always so nice to me. i remember how i felt when i was with them, and i miss that too. i know ill never see them ever again, and i know nothing will ever happen, or was ever likely to happen. i don't even know what i miss the most, if i miss their company as a friend, or if i miss them because i really like him that much, or if i miss both.
but i want to stop feeling like this. i thought i would really quickly, but it turns out thats not true at all :( in fact its the opposite. how can i stop thinking about them? how can i kick myself out of it?