Very Confused But Suffering

[Theland]

Hi ABers, Not looking for sympathy, or a cure, but just sounding off and just want to scream out.
Lots of problems all crowding in at once, and the result is my head is not or never quiet.
I just want to sleep in some kind of oblivion, but this has gotten worse over the last three days.
I am definitely NOT suicidal, but so confused and sad and suffering.
There! I've said it. Don't know what to do.
Don't expect anything helpful.
Just rather selfishly sounding off about my problems, when there are people out there who really do need help and advice.
I wish I could break down and cry, I am so mixed up.
So sorry to be a prat.

[Mamyalynne]

It's not being a prat to admit you're confused and hurting, you have physical problems and those affect how your mind works.

Trying to hod them in rather than discussing them openly with someone can lead to a gasket blowing - ask GP for a referral for some counselling.

[tonyav]

So sorry to be a prat.

Not being a prat. Have you spoken to your GP about this, Theland.

[douglas9401]

Cry then. It will help, even if it's only a temporary release.

Might take a bit of effort to get going but the relief can be amazing.

[Mamyalynne]

^ hold them in - sorry is late and eyes sore.

[Theland]

Thank you for these responses.
Do you know how ashamed of myself I am already?
It's awful.
Keep it in and suffer, share it and feel ashamed of my weakness.
Such a mess.
Keeping it away from my family, really hard.
Just nice to talk to somebody. Thank you.

[scorpiojo]

Would you consider phonjng the Samaritans, if you don't want to go into detail here?

[anneasquith]

Sometimes just sharing how low you feel with stranger can help. I know you will feel a wee bit better tomorrow, chronic medical conditions are very hard to manage sometimes .

[scorpiojo]

*phoning

[Mamyalynne]

There's no shame in admitting you're human, Douglas has a good point too - tears and a punched cushion or two can be a small release.

[wolf63]

Not being able to have a proper sleep will screw up your brain and this will make everything else seem worse.

I used to go down the park with my dogs when they were alive. The moggies refuse to go.

Hope you feel more focussed in the morning.

[vetuste_ennemi]

"Don't expect anything helpful..."

...and won't get it, because people often struggle to solve their own problems, let alone those of their neighbour, far less of the world's.

But decent people wish well for others. I hope that the kind posts on this thread hearten you somewhat.

Good luck and good night, Theland.

Am I allowed to quote the late Dave Allen: "May your God go with you"?

[tonyav]

The moggies refuse to go.

Have you told them that their maybe mice, Susan ;-)

[Theland]

Sleeping is difficult.
Already I am totally ashamed to talk about this.
You may think I am a drama queen?
I am just seeking attention?
I just want, " Oh poor you," and it goes on.
Honestly, I really don't want to trouble anybody, but I feel the ABers are a safe bet to moan to.
Thank you for your interest and time.
Maybe tomorrow will be different. Bless you all.

[scorpiojo]

Why should you feel ashamed, Theland?

[margarettom]

I understand Theland. For different reasons ( sciatica and arthritis in hip ),I have not been able to sleep properly since last October. However, there are pain killing gels/medications which help a bit for me and so, in your case perhaps, there may be medications which could give you some short term relief, after which time things may have sorted themselves out. So, I would try and see a doctor ( not easy these days I know) and I
would have a good cry. I have been driven to it a couple of times in the last few months. The night can be a very lonely time even if you don't live alone.u

[murraymints]

Hope you are feeling a bit brighter now Theland xx

[waterboatman]

Not a good place to be mate. I hope you feel a bit better now TL.

[jim360]

Different threads call for different responses. I don't think there's a single person on AB, no matter their response to your posts elsewhere, who wouldn't wish you well in these circumstances.

[Eleena]

Theland, what are your problems?

[waterboatman]

You're always welcome on the morning thread TL.