the darkness and voices inside my head

[underworld]

i always thought i was crazy cause i have all these really dark torturous thoghts about killing and hurting people or myself, and i'd hear voices telling me to do things or warning me of something to come, like before my uncle died i heard 'your birthday is near, but your time is nearer' i had no idea what it meant and when my uncle died i blamed myself for years, and thats not the only time i've heard things like that and everytime i hear something someone i love dies, whats wrong with me, why am i hearing voices and always feeling so lost and wanting to kill? why am i hearing voices and seeing ways of torturing people in my head?

[littlemissx]

morning underworld,

you say this happens quite often... have you ever tried telling your dr this?? dont worry about telling him/her... its something they come accross quite regularily and its not embarrassing or humiliating in any way. your dr can help you even if just br referring you to a specialist in this. you obviously realise that things arent right otherwise you wouldnt have posted so take the first steps and get yourself some help

xx

[dotjhawkes]

and cut out the weed

[littlemissx]

dotjhawkes

this person hasnt said they smoke weed so dont judge before you know the facts

[funnywebsite]

You need to seek counselling to help you overcome these feelings. If you go and see your doctor and explain they can find somebody to help you.

Good luck

[spaced]

Go and see your quack at soonest underworld. Could be a form of depression or plainly something you are eating/drinking is affectong your hormones and moods.

[hally3]

i wouldnt go to the doc if i was u chick bcoz i wouldnt want them to know, i would go to see a counsellor. the main thing is dont put urself down bcoz it will make u feel worse, u need to do stuff that makes u feel safe- i watch "friends" bcoz its familiar and a comedy to cheer u up! i used to cut myself and its hard for ur friends to understand if they havnt been through it. do things u like as much as you can, believe in ur self!!!!

xxx

[spaced]

..u would have to go to the doc before going to the consellor. The consellor will end up sending you back to the doc anyway, if its serious

[mibn2cweus]

When we travel too far for too long down the road of darkness and self-doubt, we can become overwhelmed with thoughts of darkness and self-doubt. Our minds can work for us as well as against us. You must make a choice as to what you want your mind to focus on and ignore distractions. Close the books, turn off the music and change the channel when you see or hear things that bring you down. Our inner voices are programmed by and respond to external input. Turn toward the light, seek music, art, literature and friendships that reveal the world in ways that make it a happy and desirable place to live and that increase your self-confidence in your ability to be happy and successful. The going can be rough at first so don�t be afraid to seek assistance from those who understand your situation and can help you redirect your focus. You seem like an intelligent and coherent person who just needs some redirection. Don�t ignore the physical health issues. A healthy mind requires a healthy body. There is an entirely different world out there. You owe it to yourself to find it.

[mibn2cweus]

Oh yeah, You might want to consider changing your screen name. I am amazed at the simularities between how people are and what they choose to call themselves. Good luck to you.

[MangoPete]

Dear Underworld,
There are several things going on in your head at the moment.
The one that needs urgent attention is the voices.
Where are the voices and do you hear them in both ears or are they in your head Do they talk to you from outside?
I work with people who hear voices. Do they come to you more when you are stressed out?
It is a common thing one in 100 hear voices at some time in their lives, but you must go and tell your GP immeadiately.He will refer you to someone who will help. If you go to a counsellor they will just refer you back o the GP.
If the voices get intollerable and you feel you are going to do what they say you need to go to the nearest accident and Emergany or call your GP for an emergency call out.
They can then get the ball rolling.
The Voices and the way you are feeling can come for a variety of reasons but can also be sorted out with the proper care.
please take care and get this sorted . With voices the sooner you get the helpyou need the sooner it will improve and the better the likelyhood of you staying beter once you are stablised.
Ley me know what happens
Peter

[killasmile*]

just wondered if u have probems sleeping? its just my sister went thro a simiar thing but she had insomnia. it took alot of testing and medication[as she was seeing things]to determan weither she was suffering from [cant spell it-sorry!] scitsofrina!-u know wot i mean! ended up being coz she wasnt sleeping. this was about a year ago,she has moved house changed jobs-well she had2,she was a macanic and due to meds and halociations it wsnt safe-and counilng she has got over te worst of it and sleeps better! good luck, and maye theres reasurance in the old saying 'crazy people dont think/know they are!' x

[underworld]

thanks guys that really helps and yeah i'm not getting any sleep, i'm lucky if i'm in bed before 5am and then i keep waking up all the time and yeah, the voices are literally like someone is next to me or in the same room as me talking to me it really is hard and i can't tell my folks cause they already think i'm crazy. i've told the dr about all this before and all i was told was to leave it till the future and focus on my other problems i have problems with my bladder and kidneys so anything else i say is never taken into consideration until i feel like its too late, i've had a cat scan and my head is normal, and i've talked to counsellors before they always say i'm lying and to just get over it, i'm begining to lose control of my emotions and getting really angry, i've even tried praying, and talking to my mates who go to church and nothing is helping, i don't know if going to a counsellor or the doc would help me cause i've already tried it and they didn't do anything. and peter (MangoPete) if you or anyone else has any other ideas you can email me at [email protected] i've tried reading, drawing, walking, but i fear i'm going to end up suicidial again cause i'm thinking about death and torture alot lately and i'm getting really down but having to fake it all at home. help please