Hi Zuny, You aren't crackers,what you are going through is perfectly normal as kate says you can't put a time scale on when you will feel you are over him,it is similar to a bereavement,that may sound a bit drastic but I do think it is a fact, it was easier for him because he was the one that wanted to part,you will compare all to him that is natural you have alot of happy times in your memory bank, when I broke up with my girlfriend it took me about 9 months to start to feel normalish, I never thought I would smile let alone be happy, but we got back together after a year, but I will never forget that pain,all you can do is take each day at a time, the smile will return,and each date with somebody new is a step on ther road to a new life, you will never forget him, but as the weeks go bye it will get easier,try to think positively and when you think of him try to remember the bad bits cos there must have been a reason for the break up, wishing you a far happier new year than the one you have just had, take care, Ray xx