I'm a 21 year old female. I often feel like an outcast or an alien in this world. I feel like I live in a world with no compatriot.
Maybe I'm an overthinker, but I often feel like when I hang out with my friends, they leave me out in their group. I'm an acting student, part-time teacher and writer. I speak in 4 languages and I'm learning the fifth one. I've gained various certificates from different institutions. And I'm a bookworm.
I didn't say these things to brag about anything. I just wanted to say that I'm not the type people may feel like they might have fun with me.
Many men ask me out, but I can't relate to them and they can't relate to me. My female friends are just the same.
I feel like everybody use me for their educational purposes and then cast me out once they no longer need me.
Men get tired of me, because we never share the same interests.
I can't go to a club and have fun. I'm into classical music and old songs from the 60s to 90s. In one simple sentence, I can describe myself as an old-fashioned woman, who's NOT conservative in sexual matters.
What should I do? How can I feel fulfilled in this world?
People often interfere into my privacy and ask me why I'm not into wearing make-up or going to crazy festivals.
I'm trying to accept the fact that no one is like me, but no one seems to even try to accept me in this huge tribe on earth!
I feel like I'll be lonely forever. I've considered dating older men, but I'm not sure if that's the right thing to do.
If you wait you will find someone with the same interests and is more interested in your personality rather than whether you wear make-up or not.You are still young so don't give up hope too easily.
You might be over thinking about things. Be yourself and do not care what others say or think about you, humour them but have the quiet satisfaction that you are probably more cultured and qualified than many of them. Aged 21 you have a long life in front of you and you can have friends of all ages, so relax and take it easy.
You are still young. There is a guy out there feeling exactly the same as you do. You just haven’t met each other yet. Don’t look for someone! They will find you. I met my husband of 52 years on a girls’ night out after being dumped by someone else. I am sure there are websites for people with your interests, perhaps you could trawl through and join one.
Why not give this site a try? You never know;-) It would be interesting to know how you get on if you do decide to use it.
I'm a classical music lover and I know it can be hard to find another.
https://www.ukmusiclovers.co.uk/classical/
Good Luck.