There's One Thing Stopping Me From Moving On After A Brokeup. How Do I Deal With This?

[Hellpappi]

Ok, so she broke up with me for losing sexual attraction. Well, was a long distance relationship, we met in real life once and tried to have sex, but guess what i did? I brought flower but not comdoms, how could i forget it? Then i tried oral her as she asked but i didn't do it right, she said she didn't feel anything. Ok so that was it, then she went back her town and said "Don't worry, we can do it right when i'm 18, i love you so much) but after 3 months she brokeup saying she lost sexual attraction for me. It devasted me in such way, i just wanna die to stop the pain, it's been like 2 months since she broke up, we're still friends but i can't stop thinking about other guy satisfying her and how dumb i was for messing up on sex, then i noticed that i wasnt well dressed for our first met, I sucks man, i definitely sucks. What makes it worst is that we are both virgin, and I won't lostvirginity with her or her with me. I cant stop blaming myself and i don't think I will be ok at all when she start dating again. I don't have friends, i'm shy for meeting new people and she doesnt even know I'm feeling like this, when we are talking I put on a happy face and act like everything is ok. But these thoughs are eating my mind. Help me please

[Mamyalynne]

You didn't do anything wrong, she wanted different things - hard though it is you must move on.

[fiction-factory]

You're still a child /young teenager really. Enjoy your life. You have maybe 70 years a head of you.No need to rush into sex or relationships.

[Old_Geezer]

If she was that keen she'd have brought the condoms.
Plenty more fish in the sea, wait to get over this disappointment then go dangle your bait again.

[pixie374]

Hi, you say you are "still friends", but it doesn't sound like you are ready for that just yet. Difficult though it seems, I think you should take a step back and concentrate on yourself and your own confidence and friends.
I don't think staying in contact with her at this point and hearing about her "new" life, is helping you at all x

[barry1010]

You will have a much better experience when you have met a girl face to face, got to know each other over time by spending time in each others company and doing fun things together and have developed feelings for each other before getting physical. Trying to have sex with a stranger (which is what she is, really)is not good for your first time experience.