Suicidal Thoughts About Prison

[Timsos]

I have Asperger's syndrome and an intensely crippling fear of being locked up. I was arrested for fraud against a company and put in a cell for under a day, it was the most shocking and terrifying experience of my life. Despite me continually complaining to the doctor and the staff about the severe anguish I was suffering being locked up, and just begging them either to leave the door open or let me lay in the medical room they really couldn't have cared less and made it clear I was just a nuisance to them until they started ignoring me.

I was released on bail but didn't show up, not because I'm afraid to accept responsibility but because I literally cannot last another second being locked up and they will just leave me helpless. I've gone into hiding because the fear is so intense I still experience nightmares and panic attacks at the memories of being locked up.

Obviously this is no way to live my life I want to go home, but I would seriously take my own life instead of being locked in prison. I know some people will accuse me of trying to use suicide to blackmail my way out of prison, but I'm completely serious, I know they will make it impossible for me to commit suicide in prison so I would rather do it before I get locked up again if there's no other choice. I'm not a threat to anyone and want to pay the money back to try and resolve things, but my lawyers assure me prison is inevitable. Being locked up really was and is the worst torture I could imagine and it will certainly lead me to take my own life, probably as a preemptive measure if I can't find a solution.

Can anyone please help me? Are there some human rights grounds can save me as this amounts to torture?

[lcg]

no.....if you are sentenced to prison, you will go to prison. you may be placed on the medical wing due to your mental health issues (aspergers can be labelled as a mental health problem), but you must be engaged with a mental health team prior to going to court for this to be taken into account. if you keep running, people will assume you are simply trying to get out of being punished (rightly or wrongly). you need to try and get in contact with services (via your gp) in order for you to have any chance of this being taken into account.