Im Due Into Detox Thext Thrday...

[nailedit]

A week from today.

dont nkow if I can do thiss his again....

Did 5 month but now got a court case agin.

sick of myself...

Sick of all the condemation

sick off all the jugment,

 

 

 

 

 

 

[nailedit]

If you all think its ok to have a teatchers nob up your arrris and think thats it wont affect you decades on, then carry on...

[jourdain2]

You can do it again, nailed it.  You've done it once, as you know.

You lived well until you had that one drink.... some of us (quite a few actually) know you can live well again.  I remember how you used to work for charities. 

I know that you, when drunk, have done things which were awful (but which the sober you is sorry for and ashamed of).  These things have to be atoned for and are bringing you pain as part of that. You can do it, please believe me.

I hope that the court will take account of the nearness of your admission to the detox and postpone any punishment until after you are sober again.

With very best wishes. You have a granddaughter who will need you, remember?

[haras2]

I think you could be on of the hardest stretches of this battle and having to struggle through a week before detox even starts must seem impossible at times. I can't offer any advice on how to do it, but I do hope you manage to make it and so do a lot of other people.

Good luck nailedit ✌

[curlyfries81]

Has anyone said that the abuse you describe at 20:30 is okay and won't affect you?

Is said Teacher still alive today? It's never too late to go to the Police.

[Rosie29]

I cant add anything useful to what has already been said.  But try to keep the thought of the detox help that is coming to you and try to remember how positive you felt last time.

Continuing best wishes dear Nailedit x

 

[elliemay1]

nailedit, I don't think you'll be happy until you do something about that awful sickening abuse. You should report the monster if he's still alive. Do you know if he abused others? If you talked to those people maybe it would help. You should definitely get counselling, it might be a start. You need to do something, you can't go on like this, otherwise the detox will be wasted, it won't solve your problem. 

[naomi24]

Nailedit, you have enormous support here.  Very few people are judging you or condemning you - and those that are can do the other thing.  They're not your keeper, they haven't lived your life, and they're not in your shoes.  If anyone is putting you down it's you - and you do that more than anyone.  In failing to acknowledge the good in you - and there's plenty of that - you are your own worst enemy.   Look to the light, nailedit.  It is there.

[seekeerz]

Agree with everything already said, but just deal with one thing at a time ....get through your detox successfully then tackle the rest of the *** ....if sobriety makes the memories worse, then maybe some antidepressants will help you deal with those but you'll need help to do that - you can't do it alone, they're too deeply entrenched in your soul and it may take some time .....they may never be completely gone but at least you'll have drawn the fangs.

Good luck and be strong ....it will be worth it xx

[mallyh]

I wish you all the best Nailedit x

[barry1010]

One of my old teachers was sent to prison in his 90s