R.I.P. My Dearest Merlin

[cat woman]

Born;- 22-08-04 Died:-05-05-06 I want to apologize now before ABrs animal lovers for what I'm about to write. Yesturday we tragically lost our dear little boy Merlin on the road, I'm absolutely crushed to the core, all I ever wanted for my cats was to live a long and happy life. Apart from my husband they are my world, they are the children I was never able to have, I worshiped the ground they walked on, I loved them ( "some people might say too much" ) they wanted for nothing. All I've done since mid-day yesturday is cry the raging pain inside me is so intense it hurts, I'm going through all the emotions to mankind, disbelief, why Merlin, all the memories of his short life are so heart rending I cant think straight, all I want is my baby boy back, this will upset people yesturday I even said that I'd rather it had been Millie than Merlin as he had the better nature , she is a very independant cat and not very loving its always has been her or no way. Today I'm calling "GOD" "JESUS" every name under the sun, every family member and friends who have passed over I'm sorry to say "I HATE" "ANGELS" because they in my mind could have protected Merlin from death. I should be at work but I just cant face people and the media. People are going past my home laughing and its cutting me up, why should they be so happy when I'm greiving with raw emotion. I'm so sorry again but needed to get this out of my system but I know it wont take the pain away. :-(

[tinkertontom]

so sorry you have had such a sad loss oviously this is very painfull for you I can understand how you are feeling as I lost one of my cats three years ago in the same tragic way and we still miss her but have many happy memories which I am sure you will have once the initial shock has passed

[B00]

Awww bless you cat woman, not seen you in ages, wish it was under better circumstances.

Time does heal your heart, in the meantime, carry on screaming, crying, belting the hubby (!) whatever helps you get through this.

All my love

Boo

xxxxxx

[smudge]

I'm so sorry to hear about your cat Merlin catwoman.

I do sympathise with you, because years ago, our first pure white deaf cat called Cleo was killed at the bottom of our road & it broke our hearts. Even worse was losing our Smudge to cancer of the knee at 13 years old. She was so loved & we all still miss her every day.

Rather than 'hate' Angels, try to think of them looking after your Merlin - I'm sure in time it will make you feel better. Take care. -x-

[B00]

drgnrdr- I hardly think this post is appropriate for your smug opinions.

cat woman is obviously upset but you saw fit to do a "I told you so post".....thats dispicable!

[tinkertontom]

how insensitive can you be drgnrdr and anyway its cruel to keep a cat shut in and yes you are a big B

[smudge]

drgnrdr - I cannot believe what you have just posted to catwoman, knowing full well how upset she is!!!!

As I've already said - we lost one of our cats in the same way. She was outside as most cats are & running away from another cat. She ran across the road in front of a car & unfortunately was killed instantly.

How anyone could take the time to write such nasty comments - rather than offer their condolences is beyond me!

What comes around.....

[shaneystar2]

Bless you catwoman..sorry to hear about your puddy cat.
Be brave...and take care.
Shaney sends a wag xxx

[B00]

You are entitled to your opinion drgnrdr, however what we ARE objecting to is the fact you feel you need to voice that particular opinion on this post.

It's like standing at someones graveside and saying to a relative "see? i told you they were ill"- you just don't bloody do it! I think it's called tact.

[smudge]

What are you on drgnrdr? You sound so bitter & twisted, I can't believe anyone in their right mind would post such nasty things!

I do hope you wake up tomorrow morning in a better frame of mind. Sleep well & don't have mightmares!

[cat woman]

So drgnrdr, one thing for sure you ain't human, you are but a smug slime ball and for as long as I live I will never forget the post you just entered. How can anyone be so unfeeling about someone else loss is behond me it a wonder you can sleep at night. I keep my cats in at night until 8 in the morning, no I dont agree with house cats I think that they should have some freedom, yeh I'v paid the price like alot of other people and I'm grieving like hell and wish it were me lying in the cold ground now! DOES THAT PLEASE YOU!!!!...... Over the last 14 months since coming on AB I've read some nasty , un-called for inane remarks and put downs, but yours has cut to the core and I surpose you'r really pleased with yourself turning the knife a bit deeper. I pity the family and friends around you they probably pity you for having such an evil streak and wonder if the wrong part was thrown away at birth!!!!!..... Go and do everyone on here a "BIG" favour and go and crawl back under the stone where you came from.

[smudge]

Hi catwoman - it's such a shame you had to read drgnrdr's unsympathetic remarks - but rest assured, there are lots of 'normal' caring people thinking of you tonight.

I do hope things will improve in time & that you are able to get a good nights sleep. -x-

[lindapinda]

Oh catwoman,I am soo sorry. I can't begin to think what you are going through.As you know,my two,are my babies too,and I can't imagine my life without them. It's all so raw right now for you,but don't feel you have to apologise for anything.Do what you have to do,to get through this.Don't feel guilty about about what you are thinking about Millie,It's all part of your grief.Nothing anyone can say can help you right now,but,if you want to talk at any time,I'll be checking into the old thread.As Boo said,drgnrdr,tact would have been preferable at this time.You have a valid point to make,but,you made it in a very cruel manner!

[cat woman]

Hi smudge, thank you for your kinds words and to the other ABr's who have posted and defended me, I am crying at the moment because of what has been posted by that "THING" its is so hard at the moment to come to terms with what has happened and I keep thinking that I can hear Merlin crying. I know you would understand what I'm going through and it has probably opened up old wounds for you and for others. We can all look back and say "IF ONLY" but dont you think what is best for a loved pet, there is too many animals wild or tame locked up deprived of their freedom and if my last remaining cat wants to go out she can but not after dark. LOL cat woman xxx

[B00]

Take care cat woman

xxxxx

[smudge]

Hi cat woman - you are more than welcome.

Your post has brought tears to my eyes, 'specially on you thinking you can hear Merlin meowing for you. We went through exactly the same thing after losing both our Cleo & Smudge.

On the night Cleo was killed, she had been sick on the hall carpet & I put her outside for a while in case she was sick again. Within half an hour, my neighbour knocked on my door to tell me that she was laying in the side of the road & that she would pick her up & bring her home for us. I was beside myself with guilt for putting her outside & blamed myself for her death, but every kind, caring person said not to blame myself & that it could have happened any time.

You have nothing to blame yourself for cat woman - all cats should be allowed to roam freely as did ours, although they were always in before we went to bed at night.

So dry your eyes, make yourself a mug of Horlicks & think of all Merlin, Cleo, Smudge & all their little friends snuggled up & quietly purring away together. -xx-

[lizwizz]

Just give yourself time to grieve, Catwoman. You've no need to feel guilty for giving Merlin a loving home with freedom to explore the beautiful world around him. At this time tears are the best medicine. At least you know he didn't suffer. Thinking of you LOL.

[Drusilla1S]

I'm sorry for your loss, cat woman and sympathise. My daughters' received a kitten for Christmas and they adore her. I was never much of a cat lover before, but she won me over and I cannot imagine our household without her now. Fortunately, people like drgnrdr, who equate animal imprisonment with safety are a minority and her post was unnecessary.