my head's seriously messed up

[nailit]

I posted this http://www.theanswerb.../Question1132122.html a couple of months ago after my marriage breakup and things went from bad to worse after getting arrested
http://www.theanswerb.../Question1149737.html
Ive got a court case hanging over my head, Im depressed all the time and I cant stop drinking. Im been attending an alcohol advisory service who are talking about doing a home detox but I know theres no chance of me stop drinking until I can get my court case out of the way. Ive also been refered to the local mental health unit who have only offered me a course for depression that starts in september (i could be in prison a few weeks later).
During both my magistrates court hearing and my plea hearing in crown court the mental health services have promised me that someone would be there to meet me from the criminal justice mental health team, both times they failed to show and no one will tell me why.
Ive also ended up in hospital a couple of times after been found in a distressed state. just given valium the next morning and told to ring the samaritans. Feel as though no one wants to no anymore.
Just dont know what to do. I dont feel safe on my own.

[nailit]

just what the f do mental health services actually do?

[cathfromsaron]

this is a worrying question and i do sympathise.

please contact the samaritans today as suggested. tomorrow ensure your GP is aware of what is happening.

[tinkerbell23]

Hiya nailit- are you online?? X

[nailit]

hi tinks, no im not online, just had the use of a friends computer last night for a couple of hours while he was out.
cath, thanks for reply. Ive rang the smaritans before, i know it helps to talk but theres only so much talking that you can do, my own GP is aware that my own local mental health services are a waste of space. I dont know how much more of this sh*t I can take anymore. Im going through the justice system for the crime of being ill and no *ucker cares.
lost my family, lost my mind and about to loose my freedom.
just what is the point of living anymore???
For christs sakes can anyone help me please?

[tinkerbell23]

I think that the court will see tht you are ill...

Stick with your health services, i think it is totally normal to feel,"all talked out" and that they might not be helping...i myself am having counselling and sometimes i cant be @rsed going....

I know sometimes you dont want to talk, but coming here, all we here can do is talk and im sure i speak for everyone when i say please do come here for a chat. Please. Even if its not about your situation, come here and join in something else if you dont want to talk about you.

Please stick with your GP and your mental health team. Just keep contact with them. Things can get better. It wont be easy, or over night....once your court case is over, try to get off the drink.....i can totally understand why you might want to wait till then...

After september, lets try for a "new leaf"..... And go to that course aswell...like minded people there, and its time to spend with folk and you wont be alone...

You have a family that loves you nailit...you have been through such a hard time, but dont be hard on yourself either ok.....

The next few weeks will be tough im sure untill court...hang on in there pal. You really can do this...mega hugs from me...xxxxxxxxx

[daisya]

Nailit, I hope you are still logging in here when you can....have you contacted the samaritans again, I do hope so and perhaps been back to your doctor. I can't imagine what you are going through to be so desperate, please keep trying to hang in there especially with the medics. If you keep on asking you might eventually be given the help you need...difficult I know but it may just turn out to get you what you so desperately require. All my best wishes go to you and do let us know how you are getting on. {{{{gentle hugs}}}}

[piggynose]

imo you need to create a distraction until september. are you healthy enough to go running? or light jogging, it can help. its an idea.