Looking for some support please

[crossroads]

Hi, i know i'm supposed to be ejnoying my break in Iceland, but i have a problem. I don't think i'm going to manage without the Demerol. I have managed these past few days without it and not really given it a thought but today, its just hit me hard. I'm so miserable now, i am stuck in the hotel, as low as anything.
I went to the medical room (in the hotel) and asked for some antidepressants but they said they were not allowed to give them to me.
They are hard to find in Iceland.
I came on here now, basicly, in need of some support. I'm not likly to get it, but theres no harm in asking.
I can't think straight at the moment.
What can i do to take my mind of the Demerol?
Thanks, Crossy [:( ]

[Sasha13]

As a matter of interest, if you're addicted to demerol, which (for the UK peeps in case you don't know) is a painkiller, how are antidepressants (which take a couple of weeks to work at least) going to help? And what hotel in the world holds stocks of antidepressants?

[crossroads]

(I dojn't know sasha, perhaps thats why they said they couldn't give them to me.
I'm not thinking straight at the moment, and to the joy of 99.9% of users on here i may not be coming back, and i mean that.

[daffy654]

Just had to look up Demerol to see what name we would know it by here in the UK...It is Pethidine,a drug mainly used during childbirth. I have had it as pain relief when my lung collapsed. I have to say it made me feel like s**t. Why would you want to take it for recreation is beyond me but I suppose its too late for that Crossy if you're already an addict. Maybe you should be asking a doctor in your hotel for valium not antidepressants.

[crossroads]

Its a long story daffy, but mainly it was whenn i was prescribed it, became addicted. Anyway, i don't know why i went to the medical room, perhaps it would be better if i just gave up and went back to my old ways. That would be easier for everyone.

[ermintrude35]

...raid the mini bar...get rat arsed ...listen to some Bijork and go visit some hot spring and boling mud....

[Sasha13]

daffy654 - you get a rush when you take it due to the way that it works - bit like if someone was snorting a line of coke (don't know this from person, did a chemistry and pharmacology degree!).

[Sasha13]

crossroads - I know you've come on here looking for sympathy - but at the end of the day (if this is for real), no one can make you snap out of this - if you are clinically depressed you need to see a doctor to get some counselling or antidepressents. Go home (I take it you're not from Iceland?) and seek medical help.

[Shazza36]

You're in Iceland what you doing stuck in a hotel room?? My son came back from a trip to Iceland and couldn't stop talking about everything he had done and seen, get out there get walking up a glacier, go to the blue lagoon find a tour to go on don't sit there brooding. Think about the ill people who actually need painkillers to physically function without being in imense pain these people would love to not have to take it.

[crossroads]

I've had enough, i'm not depressed, i'm in pain. I've had enough of doctors and help that leads to nothing.
I don't want sympathy, i want help, and that is somthing that is not available at the moment.
If you look at my life, you think, what an idiot he's wasted his life.
Thats how i see it, i was ok, until the drugs and then it all goes wrong. My friend (who passed away a while ago) once said to me this: "If your life ain't worth living, why are you living it?"
The same applies to me, i've got nothing to live for, my life is ruined.
When i think about what he used to tell me, i think why am i still bothering, maybe i should just die and end all the pain.

[andrea81]

I don't advocate looking for drugs, you can try Valeriana, it's a herb and is known for its tranquilising effects. It doesn't make you really sleepy, but really chilled out! Try a herbolist and ask for that!

[crossroads]

Obviously andrea, you do not understand what it is l;ike to be addicted, depressed, and in a downward spiral.
Herbs may be good for recreational, but my addiction is not curable by herbs.

[andrea81]

Sorry honey, just thought it might help a little just to calm you down a bit so that you can think more rationally! But I think you need to go home and seek help now!

[bobtheturkey]

come home and seek professional help is about the only advice i could give you cross

[crossroads]

I've been thinking about this, and i'm coming home.
What to do from there i don't know, but i just hope this drugs group will help me.

[bednobs]

i think you talk a load of crap to be quite honest, and i think all these people are just "playing along" with you whilst all the time knowing it too.

[bobtheturkey]

well bednobs i believe everything i read on here 100 per cent

[B00]

it is hard not to be cynical isn't it bednobs when we've already heard so much codswallop.

Crossy-on the offchance that you may, just may, be telling the truth here, I really do hope you get the help you so obviously need. And if you are spinning yet another yarn....well, I guess we'll be seeing you shortly :-)

[bednobs]

lol really? So you actually believe i would save rupert fron extinction rather than paddington? In rupert's dreams!

[bobtheturkey]

i prefer a blue duffel coat to checked trousers, cross put some trivia up that will help

[crossroads]

bednobs, maybe if you had an addiction and you were very low, you and you wern't thinking straight you would understand. But you don't have an addiction, and your life isn't a mess.
You don't know me, and you don't know my life history.
I come on here to ask for help. I can't think what i'm doing at the moment.
You are the one talking **** here because you, just like all the other users on here are making my life even more difficul;t than it already is.
How would you like it if you watched your closest friend die?
You wouldn't, well some people happen to have been in the situation were they have witnessed and tried to prevent their closest friend from being hit by a lorry.
The thing that bothers me, is when you comment that i am making up the fact that i am getting myself sorted out, you are also commenting on my friend. And you have no right to do that.