Nungate

[queenofmean]

Today would have been her birthday.

So if you are looking in Happy Birthday mum, love you loads.

I've struggled with a lot the last few weeks as no doubt some of you know. All I've really wanted is her. But I know she is with me, I get it all the time how much I'm like her and how much I sound like her, look like her etc. So she hasn't really gone.

People said writing helps so I'm going to start writing again but in the mean time I just want her and you all to know I'm ok. Haven't killed dad, finally getting the message through that Toast is NOT a substitute for a meal, but I'm failing in trying to get him to keep the house tidy. Give him his dues where the hoover is concerned he does a grand job but there is more to housework than that. I enjoy completing her 'Crossies' like normal on a Sunday evening and I've rekindled my love of Country music.

I miss her more than I'd care to say but whatever she's doing I hope she has an amazing Birthday.

[anneasquith]

Nungate, can I just assure you * the toes* are in good condition. Q, was a bit down last week, but has bounced back.

[gness]

Queenie....remember.....you were lucky.....you had a lovely, caring mum who loved you very much....treasure that always......Gx

[queenofmean]

I will do Gness, I just wish I had longer. I wear her Wedding Ring on a chain and I rarely leave the house without it xx

[DaisyNonna]

Understand your loss Queenie
Keep going with all that is important to you, that is what nungate would have wanted
Fried egg sandwiches are my substitutes for a real meal
I love jazz and crosswords
It was nungate who introduced me to and inspired my love of cross stitch
Forever grateful for that
Currently stitching a facsimile of a Willow Pattern Plate (tiny stitches) and a cushion cover front of sunflowers (much bigger)
A lovely lady who showed me a way to feel happy

[Mamyalynne]

Anniversaries of any sort are hard I know but hold your precious memories close ♥

[queenofmean]

She loved a Fried Egg Sarnie too Daisy. Not had one in a long time!
I dabble with my Stitching - when I have time. I've began a quick piece for a friend for a card, designed by yours truly. Chose to do it in Light Effects Thread - loads of cursing so far and all I've stitched is Happy 40th.
I'm glad Nungate inspired you to stitch, she did the same when I was little. I wanted to be just like mum. Guess that wish was granted.

[queenofmean]

Thank you Mamya ❤️

[Lie-in King]

((QoM)) :-) x

[DaisyNonna]

Have had so many happy productive hours inspired by nungate and so many people who have received and enjoyed the things I have stitched
Without your mother none of this would have been remembered in a way that can be seen, felt, kept and enjoyed
Her memory is precious to you and her influence is far reaching
A little girl in Australia loved a Christmas card I stitched
Rejoice in the many people who she made happy by her encouragement
Love Glynis x

[cupid04]

Mums are special. xx

[ummmm]

I find anniversaries, birthdays, really hard. I hope you make it through the day without too many tears x

[murraymints]

thinking of you both today ..big big hugs xx

[albaqwerty]

((hugs)) for you and dad Queenie xx

[NoMercy]

Thinking of you both xx

[queenofmean]

Thank you everyone.

I have to go into work later this afternoon so that will keep me busy.

Dad, my godmother and mums best friend and myself are going out for a meal tonight.

I cried a little bit before I went to bed ummm. But hopefully that was my lot. I want to remember the good times.

[ummmm]

I focus on the good times but find it's those that make me cry. It's those times you miss and pine for.

Anyway...I'm an advocate for sobbing if need be.

[DTCwordfan]

Happy Birthday up there, Nungate.

Release a balloon(s) for her, Queenie - in Barca colours perhaps?

[NoMercy]

Your mum has been gone less than 2 years, so it will still feel raw from time to time.

Don't set yourself a time limit - you will turn a corner when you are ready to but until then grieve as much as you need to.

[queenofmean]

Ummm...I cried most of last week as nothing went right and I felt out of my depth without her. You mentioned to me once if I wanted to cry to just do it no matter where I was...those words have stuck with me and I stand by them.

I had thought about it DTC but we are low on helium and we don't have any red or burgundy coloured ones. Maybe next year I'll give it a go.

I know NoM - I've turned a few corners but this is a big one and I realise it may be one I can never turn. I did ask for her help a few weeks ago and I believe she answered as I got what I needed - eventually!

[marval]

Your Mum will always be in your heart. There will be certain days which will be difficult, just remember she is up there watching over you. Allow yourself to have a cry, she was a very big part of you.

You have come a long way, and she would be very proud of you.

My thoughts to you and your Dad. xx