Long story short I met a man online in australia and we slowly fell in love.I went to visit him last december and it ewas amazing we even got engaged.In january I found myself attracted to a friend of a friend and I subsequently ended it with the aussie bloke to be with my current bf.
The problem is the last few months me and my bf have been arguing non stop mainly because he is very jealous and possesive and cant or wont understand my mental illness(me and my ex met via a page about mental illness on a social networking sight as he suffers from mental illness too).The problem is I am still in touch with my ex with my current bf knows about and I find myself thinking about my ex a lot and wondering if I made a mistake by ending it.I still have feelings for him but feel confused as to whether I still love him or just long for the time we had together because things are bad with my current bf
I know a long distance relationship will be very very hard but I cant seem to get my ex out of my head.Also I did try to avoid my current bf when I was attracted to him when I was still with my ex but felt drawn to him.I ended it with my e because I thought if I am attracted and drawn that strongly to another man I couldnt love him that much
I hope this makes some kind of sense and any advice would be appreciated
I want to make it work with him but he doesnt seem to wanna try he seems to wanna make me take all the blame.I'm thinking though surely I shouldnt be considering trying to get back with my ex if I truly love my current bf.If I can decide how I really feel I will break it off with him I dont wanna junp from one man to the next.I think I might mull it over til new year and see how christmas goes then decide and make a new start however it goes.I just wondered if anyone had had similar experiences.Love is confusing