Sorry For Absence.......

[Smowball]

I’ve been a complete berk. The last time I posted I was in a right state.I’d found this lump, seen my doctor, she’d referred me to someone else. Saw them that day, and they said yes there was one, and due to family history(my mum) and the fact it was hereditary, it was likely to be cancerous and she was referring me to a cancer clinic. Well I got into a terrible state when I got home, also knew I’d lost over 3 stone without trying, and so I decided there was no way I didn’t have it. Had a couple of glasses of wine, decided I was 100% going to die of cancer. And then I went on AB. Can’t even remember whose post it was but because I’d absolutely convinced myself I had cancer I blurted out that I had, before I’d been 100% diagnosed. The second I posted it I regretted it. But I was convinced. Didn’t know what to do so I vanished. Bottom line is I get my diagnosis this Wednesday - am seeing my breast surgeon. Hopefully ok but I’m well aware may still be bad news. I know I’m going to get an array of comments on this post, from the lovely to the ‘attention seeking’ ones, but all the ABers I speak to outside of here know I’m not like that. I was just frightened, and still am.
Love to you all - you’re all great and I’ve missed here loads xx

[barry1010]

Glad to see you back, Smow. I well remember the post you are talking about and you're brave to come back. Hopefully others will be considerate.
I wish you well and hope you get good news.

[Sqad]

Nice Post which couldn't have been easy to write.
We all do and write stupid things.
Welcome back.

[shoota]

XXX

[roopower]

I can understand how frightened you are. I do hope you get good news. Take care.x

[Buenchico]

>>> I’ve been a complete berk

Being a complete berk can be a useful attribute here in Chatterbank ;-)

Welcome back, Smow!

I hope that the news is good but, even if it isn't, there's still plenty of hope. It's nearly a year since I was given my cancer diagnosis but (to the annoyance of many here, no doubt) I still seem to have a pulse ;-)

[Smowball]

Don’t set me off you lot - I don’t have enough tissues!! But thanku so much xxx

[Bobbisox1]

Welcome back Smow, a brave post indeed

[TonyV]

Smow, I know it's easy to say, but no point in thinking the worst and worrying yourself silly until you have had a biopsy, if deemed necessary. Wishing you well xxx

[Lie-in King]

Good to see you Smow & I wish you all the best for Wednesday x

[Mamyalynne]

Welcome back, an understandable reaction from you and thanks for the explanation.

Rooting for you and hope it's good news. x

[elliemay1]

Glad to see you back, smow. Don't beat yourself up about it, we all do rash things at times. Good luck for Wednesday x

[Bobbisox1]

Smow please let us know the outcome, I too am rooting for you xx

[Patsy33]

Hi Smow, hope you are calmer now. Very understandable you were frightened. Whatever the outcome, you'll have plenty of support from medical professionals and on here. Best wishes x

[Mexican18]

Best wishes,Smow.

[Smowball]

So I can annoy you all again with my daft questions?? :)

[Mozz71]

We all screw up Smow, it's brave post to own up to what happened. Welcome back.

[Arksided]

Welcome back and all the best to you Smow.

[Bobbisox1]

See? All positives from everyone here Smow

[rockyracoon]

Welcome back, Smow

[Smowball]

God you’re all so lovely! Have missed u all so much lol x