The Other Side Of Depression

[Theland]

I don't know what's going on with me.
I suffer occasional very deep lingering bouts of depression that are cruel and beyond anything I could describe.
Mere words a?ways seem to miss the point.
But today is crazy!
I feel on top of the world, like I am on a real high. I have energy, well a good level for me. Mrs T looked out of the window and remarked what a miserable grey day it was. I looked out and think its beautiful, the colour of the darkish clouds, the grass still green and leaves everywhere. The occasional bus or car going past. All normal that I see every day, but different, and peaceful, and I'm even jittery inside with a euphoria that is not normally me.
Crazy man I tell you. Wish I could be like this all the time.
Meds not changed apart from more antibiotics.
Never take sugar in tea, but today I am and loving it.
I was even singing before and Evelyn and Alex were laughing at me!
Wish I could switch this on any time, on demand!

[rowanwitch]

Rebound sometimes catches me out too, nothing extreme like a bipolar high but a sudden relief, that seems all the sharper for the darkness of my normal days
Trouble is it usually comes with a dip in its tail.

[allenlondon]

As Cleese says (I might paraphrase) in Clockwise, “It’s the hope I can’t stand. I can handle the despair; it’s the hope that gets me.”

[calmck]

Is it the new pill the doctor gave you when you were really down. You could have a good level in your body now.

[Theland]

The new pill is Mirtazapine (I think), been on it over a week.

[pixie374]

Glad it's helping, theland... maybe some relief for you too, from being so ill.

[ducksie]

I used to take zispin for sleep, a long time back, that would hardly make you high would it? have you bipolar?

[wolf63]

If you get too happy it might be worth talking to your doctor. Manic attacks can be terrifying.

[Theland]

Oh Pixie, today has been wonderful. Even my breathing hasn't been too much of a problem.
If the telly is good tonight, well, a perfect day :-):

[ducksie]

I agree with you wolf, coming down off that high would be hell. Good to have a chat with GP

[pixie374]

Really glad, theland.... enjoy it :-).

[Theland]

I'm Elvis again :-)

[pixie374]

See you in Sainsburys:-)

[fcc]

Thank you Theland,it seems your happiness is contagious,and giving
everyone a lift on a cold winters day.

[jennyjoan]

theland - enjoy the highs when you get it cos the lows come soon enough. x

[andy-hughes]

Theland - i am pleased to read that you are enjoying some relief from the bottomless torture of depression - I really hope it continues, and levels out to something you can enjoy on a daily basis.