hi rocky, I along with many others will know the pain you are feeling, all I can say is the pain will fade away in time, but it will take time rocky, there is no other cure for how you feel, crying is natural, never be afraid to show your emotions, when i split with my then girlfriend I felt like I had been stabbed through the heart it is the most painfull hurt and it is very real, try to find something to take your mind off of it during the daytime, I know the pain is worse at night but you are going to have to deal with that, as I said over time the pain is more bearable , slowly but surely you will rebuild your life, good luck rocky, take it easy and try to look forward, Ray