been reading your posts oldgrape, But I often find it difficult to reply to posts like yours. Face to face I could, but on the pc, I find it hard. So sorry.
But you have been through a terrible time, with your baby, and now this. I can only send you my thoughts, and really good luck wishes to you.
I have had some really bad times too. And have got through them, but only by looking back now, I realise how strong I was, but didn't realise it at the time. As like you, I was just getting through it.
You have a lot of support on here oldgrape. So hold on to that. Not much good at pixels on here. But sending you a big hug xx