help me

[Connemmara]

Hi I am just after drinking a bottle of sherry and will continue to drink more beer this afternoon

I have so much physical pain in my body from top to my very ankle which have all been broken over the years along with mental health which makes me cry and cry. I know you all will be saying it is the drink - and you are right but only right a bit tiny bit.

I have my weight (which I dont like) in which I wont socialise because of it. I cant wear nice clothese because they pain me so much (the bra especially) so I dont wear one I have numerous friends (brilliant friends) but they dont ring. (nothing to do with the drink) all to do with the fact when the ring me to go out I wont go. Believe me even though you are reading a morbid report I am alleged to be a very funny gal.

I have lost so many members of my family mom, dad, brilliant aunts young nephews (who was shot and one drowned) and the family I am left with dont know about what I have been really through.

In 1975 I was shot from a car
1993 I broke my arm and set my attic on fire at the same time
1998 articulated car crashed into me forcing me to hit another 3 cars - I walked away only to have pain many months later.

2008 - holidays broke the same arm again, an ankle and a tooth.

Teeth cause me so problems with all these crowns and I spit blood every day.


Now would you believe the last time I went to doctors (who is brilliant) was August 2008. I just feel there is nothing anybody can do for me as I know I have to just to learn to live with all this physical and mental pain - I live alone - with my little dog.

I know some of you will say get to the doctors - believe me I have got antid[presants - they did not work in fact they made me worrse.

Anyway I am having a bad day today. Sorry for moaning because I know very well there are worse scenarios than

[MWB]

Blo0dy hell! Where to start, connemmara!

[Connemmara]

Laughting at you MWB - that is only a starter. Might write abook sometime. But pray for me (if you are relgiious)

[prostitute]

i wish I could start drinking. alas I have just started work

[prostitute]

connemmara when was the last time you had bed room action. this can often really cheer people up ;)

[MWB]

When you're feeling as bad as this - sleep is the best interim measure. Do you have some sleeping pills? If so, take a double dose. It won't hurt.

[Connemmara]

I have not bedroom action for 20 years - I do know what you mean but I definitely could not do with it anybody you know - good luck to you for making men smile.

The last man I loved really loved was 20 years ago and I never got over him. Met loads of men after him but never had sex as I said it was 20 years ago.

[tiggerblue10]

I don't think sleeping pills are a good idea after a skinful of alcohol.

[Connemmara]

being honest with mbw - i am taking sleeping pills with all this - I did not I cracked open a bottle of sherry until I looked at the bottle this morning - cos I just had may 2-3 sleeping pills. Someday I am going to be found dead., with all these pills and drink. Plus I have a terrible pain in my right side - I am going to get my liver done with the nurse some time in the future

[MWB]

Agreed, tigger. But 3 or 4 sleeping pills won't hurt.

[MWB]

Alcohol is a depressant.

[prostitute]

tigger a blue valium after a few beers is second to none! but its highly dangerous and I would never recomend it.

[Gormless]

I don't know exactly how you feel, but a bit similar maybe. The thing to hang on to is that it won't last forever. There are days when you simply need to knock back a large sherry at 10am to take the edge off your anxiety, it sounds awful, but it's not a cardinal sin, just your difficulties at this moment. They will pass, you have to believe that. Don't kill yourself with guilt.

[prostitute]

have you tried listening to cliff richards connemmara? he brightens up my day no end.

[MWB]

Valium is ok. But zopiclone is better for really working to get you to sleep.

[haysi06]

Connemmara you are doing the right thing by asking for help if you feel so bad, perhaps you could phone someone? If not a friend or family member, please phone the samaritans as they can and will help you xx

[Connemmara]

thanks gormless for that. I feel awful because it is Good Friday and Jesus Christ suffered so much for us. so that we could be in a better place. Thanks

[Gormless]

Blue valium is 10mg, that is a hefty dose, and with a bit of booze might zap you. But maybe you are in a phase where you need to be zapped just to get by.

It will pass. I will not post what once happened to me, but it was similar and it passed, as will yours. Good luck to you.

[craft1948]

I'm permanently on antidepressants but still get down sometimes especially in the winter time. If you can go for a short walk with the dog or even just sit outside and get some fresh air....

[MWB]

Ring psych emergency. Go straight to the horses mouth.

[pastafreak]

Not bad advice from gormy. You need to take it one day at a time hun. And NEVER apologise to us. We can listen...then give advice-or just tell you to sod off-lol!

Get in touch with some of those friends. They will understand if they are true friends.......if you can't / won't go out....bring the fun to yours. It is no good sitting all on your own and lonely. x