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The help I was referring to was basically just answering the questions why is it no matter how hard I try from what I have been through in my life that I still am completely and totally UNABLE to lose faith that there ARE actually some people out there in this world that ARE TRULY GOOD AND CARING people out there somewhere even if I don’t come across them before I eventually die, and also I am honestly slightly curious as to exactly whether or not that the way that I feel is actually even “normal” or not. I truthfully am extremely sorry for my immensely improper spelling and punctuation I normally am not ever that bad, however though I will wholeheartedly admit to you all that at this particular time that I was in the process of typing everything out I was honestly I guess just so incredibly OVERWHELMED with what has been going on for the last 8 months particularly that I really just needed to get everything inside of me all out and be able to have a little venting time in the process of trying to also find a legitimate explanation for the TRUE reason for why that I feel the way that I feel. For whatever reason I can’t seem to shake the feeling in my head as well as my heart that continuing to hold out hope given my past is in a way abnormal I guess you could say, and quite frankly I have wracked my brain day after day trying to understand it all mainly due to the simple fact that I am honestly completely confused as hell trying to find answers. I am seriously very much extremely sorry for the eccentric way in which that I ended up coming across. I truly do appreciate each and every single one of you all for making the attempt and the effort that you have all put forth in order to hopefully be able to actually help me to be able to really understand my dilemma. What you have all done for me I can promise you has definitely meant a great deal to me, because I know that none of you who have made the effort to help me find answers due to the fact that I truly do know that none of you actually “HAD” to respond to my conundrum. Thank you all SO VERY MUCH!!!(: