I only rarely look in on the music thread, so I missed Susan's sad news and I'd like to pass on my condolences here.
When my beloved Biscuit was killed by a car last month, I cried for the first time in nearly 60 years, so I know how you must be feeling, Susan.
I'm lucky though in that I've still got Biscuit's three siblings to cheer me up; I hope that you'll soon be able to get some new feline company in your life too, Susan.