Nobody wants to drive you from the site; so please do not take it that way.
As you know I have answered as many of your questions as anyone and have enjoyed assisting your progression from the coffee-time puzzles you were on through to the more difficult cryptics.
If i may be permitted i feel you have been trying to make the jump from basic crosswords to the really more advanced ones a bit too quickly. You have attempted to move from the Telegraph to the Spectator in a few weeks. This is rarely possible and has lead to you posting a lot more questions , including many without any starting letters, as you are stuck.
Take it more slowly ,a natural progression Telegraph ,Times Cryptic and Jumbo,Guardian , And so on up to the Spectator and The Listener!
I am a supporter of yours so don't give up !
Best wishes K