Im exactly the same when it comes to animals being hurt, having to be put to sleep or even just being ill, i get so upset it breaks my heart, but i keep having them, my home seems so empty without an animal in it, no matter what animal it is i just need them, but i can handle losing them, i had 2 wonderful boy cats, now sadly no longer here, but we had awful neighbours, and while we were away, the friendly one must have gone over for a stroke and ended up being kicked in the chest and mouth, it broke his jaw damaged his chest and he never really recovered and so eventually he was so ill from the shock he was pooing out of his mouth, which then resulted to him being put tosleep, and his brother lasted 1.5 yrs after and i think he just gave up and didnt eat or do anything and his organs gave up and he had to be put to sleep, so many sick bas***** out there. xx