How could this home education have been arranged...and would it ever have worked?

[Willow22]

I need advice/an opinion. When I first started high school I lost two people of whom I was very close to. I became very depressed. I started to refuse to go to school on-and-off regularly. It was the biggest mistake of my life. this carried on for two years. No-one helped me. my parents then sent me to a private schoo, and lied to the head tecaher saying that I wasn't behind in my schholwork..when I was..seriously behind.... I found I couldn't keep up with the work..by the end of the year I couldn't cope anymore and because I didn't know what to do...refused to go to school altogether.(this was the end of my third year in high school) I was then at home with 3 measly hours of home tuition in only Englah and art....for the next 2 years. I got G grades in my GCSEs (apart from English) what I need to know is.....when I was at the end of my 3rd year and then went to ahve home tuition...how could I have fixed the situation then/ what could I have done? I didn't have a clue how I could have caught up/what I should have done to fix the situation at this point. WHAT SHOULD I HAVE DONE BACK THEN? HOW COULD I HAVE FIXED THINGS? PLEASE HELP AS THIS IS IMPORTANT TO ME. Could I somehow have caught up if my parents had been able to arrange proper home education/tuition for me?(starting again with year7/first high school year work) and then taking 5 years to catch up before I sat my GCSEs?(so I would have been taking my GCSEs about now) or would this not have worked? If not...then why?
also...how could this home education have been arranged/organised?? Since my parents wouldn't have had a clue how to structure this?
Can anyone provide me with any answers? please don't say that it doesn't matter anymore...because it really does to me...and it would help me to sort my head out if I knew the answers to these things.
I live in England

[Sammy Snake]

You serously need help - speak to a counceller, go to your doctor and explain you are depressed and have suicidal thoughts, they will refer you to one.

[ummmm]

at 18 you are now an adult. Ian aka Skye doesn't fancy you. He told me!

[redcrx]

as i said before, there is no point in trying to blame your education, parents or life on what has happened.
Concentrate on getting a future, stop posting here and go do something constructive.

As Sammy points out, a trip to a counsellor is the first step, seek help for that problem of yours.

[loukr]

yea he told me too. he has a girlfriend called ummmm

[ummmm]

lol lol lol loukr!!!!

[bambiboo78]

Willow why do you feel so strongly about getting qualifications? is there some profession you want to enter into that you need A levelsand degree for that you want to pursue? if so and u really want to go for it then try the vocational route eg. if dream of being teacher look into being a classroom assistant, if solicitor go for being a legal secretary etc, u can get qualifications at any age, try and put it into perspective, qualifications arent all that, yes it feels good to have them but it doesnt solve anything unless you really know what you want to do, I took the academic route and im now retraining at 28 for something completely different, so it doesnt make that much difference unless u really know what u want to do in the first place. As for Skye if he's ure true friend he wont give a **** how many certificates u have, wud u care if he got bad grades?