I am going to trial this year, i'm really nervous and not coping. The thought of being in a room full off people I get anxious and panic when i'm around a lot of people and its worse as there all looking at you. I'm really not coping well I have a really strong support unit but feel I can't tell them how i'm really feeling and thoughts i'm getting. My mums bi polar and I can't make this any worse for her to tell her the way I feel. I feel like a need to speak to someone. What i'm getting charged with is very serious and its all because of my x, it has torn my world apart i've lost my job I feel embarased on my family as my name has been in the paper its an unusual name so I feel as though people know who I am and are looking and talking about me like i'm a criminal when i've never been in trouble before and i'm not that type of person. Its really breaking me i've done a stupid thing in the past and overdosed but that was over something really silly and this is serious. I really think there something mentaly wrong in my head with the relationship I have been in now I see clearly but find to hard to admit to people as i've watched my mum with it in and out of hospital and drugged up with medication I don't want that to happen to me I really need help or someone to talk but my family I have no friends I feel all alone with so many family member around i dont want to sound ungreatful becausethey are very supportive and i'm so greatful, But need someone else to speak to who can make sense of me Who can I speak to?