Wellbeing

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I am going to trial this year, i'm really nervous and not coping. The though of being in a room full off people I get anxious and panic when i'm around a lot of people and its worse as there all looking at you. I'm really not coping well I have a really strong support unit but feel I can't tell them how i'm really feeling and thoughts i'm getting. My mums bi polar and I can't make this any worse for her to tell her the way I am. I feel like a need to speak to someone. What i'm getting charged with is very serious and its all because of my x what he had hid from me, it has torn my world apart i've lost my job I feel embarased on my family as my name has been in the paper its an unusual name so I feel as though people know who I am and are looking and talking about me like i'm a criminal when i've never been in trouble or not that person before. Its really breaking me i've done a stupid thing in the past and overdosed but that was over something really silly. I really think there something mentely wrong in my head with the realationship I have been in now I see clearly but find to hard to admit to people as i've watched my mum with it in and out of hospital and drugged up with medication I don't want that to happen I really need help or someone to talk but my family I have no friends I feel all alone with so many family member around and they are very support and i'm so greatful for them but Who can I speak to beside them.

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the samaritans - they are always available

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Now re-posted in Law so it may be best to put all replies in there