It was my fifteenth birthday. My mum told me to go study maths. I went up to my room and cried because I was lonely and miss my family (they all live in London)
Next thing I hear is my 12 yr old brother and 7 yr old sister screaming and crying like someone's being murdered 'stop you're going to die, stop!!! you'll die stop please!!" etc etc. I come running downstairs still crying and screaming myself, expecting to find my mum about to slit her throat or something. Instead my little brother has a packet of her super strong painkillers and she's sitting on the edge of her bed, after already taking four pills. She was going to overdose to get my dad's attention, hoping he would see how desperately we want to move home. He knows though!! OD'ing on your kids 15th birthday isn't the right answer!!
This isn't the first time she's gone mental, I remember grabbing my baby sister from her when I was 7 years old because she was (im pretty sure) about to throw her down the stairs. She came into my siblings and dad with a fabric belt around her neck screaming 'pull it, pull it, I'm already dead!'
She makes me and my brother+sister so scared sometimes:( Do I have a right to be mad? I haven't even explained a quarter of the awful things she's done... Or am I being insensitive to the fact that she's lonely?
She is screaming for help, that's for sure. What is also for sure is that you are too young for this responsibility - so you are in order to be upset. If it helps I came home on the eve of my 16th birthday party to find the house on fire! All my friends came anyway next day and helped to wash off smoke-blackened walls etc..
You are 15. Your doctor will take you seriously and I suggest that you start with a visit there and tell him/her everything. Good luck. :)