Seriously, just what is the point of existing?
We might exist for an average of 70-80 yrs and then what? We die, not even remembered in the next 70-80 years. It all seems so pointless. People that we love will die eventually, everything that we value will perish, our experiences in life will fall by the wayside and mean nothing to anyone. All the arguing here on AB means nothing in the great scheme of things, all the opinions expressed will mean nothing in a few years time.
Why even bother trying to survive when the end result is death anyway?
I like it here Nails. Had some bad "patches" but not being able to identify a better place, thought.....hmm better get on with it. Talking life here, not AB Cul de sac.
It's what we do along the way that makes our lives worthwhile. You are not a standalone entity which has no effect on any other entity. Everything you do has an effect. Contrary to being pointless, life is a huge responsibility.
If I follow your posts it seems your life is a bit of a rollercoaster, maybe with more lows than highs but I'm pretty sure it doesn't have to be that way.
You might have to trust health professionals to do what they think is best for your situation and accept that they might know a bit more than you about symptoms and treatments even if it takes a while.
Ignoring advice and digging your heels in because you think you know better might not be the best way to make things better.
I don't think anybody's life is a bed of roses but we can only try.