You've knocked on a door for 20 years with no answer, it's now safe to assume that there's nobody home.
The great news is that you've obviously realised this and are beginning to take steps by yourself. Time to use Sunday mornings for something that furthers your life goals with a new set of people. Maybe a walking group or a book club. You don't have to make massive changes at once, if you want to move then don't move too far away etc.