By the way, it's like you had read my mind before posting on Tony's 'Atheist' thread.
Every time I came across your post I think 'this is me, this how I feel' :-)
For goodness sake ummmm believe in Ginger he's your other half, and when in Confession Box tell Priest that you love Ginge more than anythnng else !
If the Priest has a Bar in confession Box ask him for a stiff Whisky !!!!!