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[CelticAmethyst20]

Okay, so long story short, I am an anorexic going thorugh recovery. The doctors keep telling me that I'm not fat, but I just can't see it! I'm 5'2 and between 100-105 lbs I'm guessing (they won't tell me my weight for obvious reasons.) I feel so ugly! No one ever tells me I'm beautiful except those who know I have an eadting disorder. I'm 14 years old and just want to know the truth, am I pretty? I have medium brown hair with natural golden blonde and red highlights., I have very pale skin with warm undertones and hazel/bronze eyes. I have more of a rounded square face and my eyes are between an oval and roundish shape. Please tell me your honest opinion. I would post a pic but I'm not allowed.

[tamborine]

to be blunt, anorexia is not attractive. Do your inner thighs meet at the top - if there is 2inch gap or more you are underweight. Its difficult to visualise you but you must eat a balanced diet for your overall health & welfare.

[karenmac60]

Your natural colouring and face shape sound very pre raphaelite and very attractive - how many times have I wished for reddish hair! Without seeing a picture I can't really say for sure, but you sound like a very natural beauty, the combination of your darkish hair and eyes against your pale skin will be very dramatic. If you are not sure who the pre raphaelites are, google them - very romantic pictures with very beautiful and natural heroines. Good luck to you in your battle.
x

[smart1]

You have put a lot of thought into your opening - I suggest you speak to your therapist.
you are probably very pretty, but obviously very insecure.

[boxtops]

I wish you well - keep on the path to recovery.

[ummmm]

Celtic...,Listen to the words of this song over and over. It is so true in what it says

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmAReOklwNY

[CelticAmethyst20]

thank you all for your support :) I do see a therapist every other week as well as a specialy trained nurse, my only problem with this recovery is that I am very, very insecure and have a hard time even opening up to my therapist. 'ummmm', I like the song, and I actualy am 40% Irish and 40% Scottish as well as 20% English.

[Eve]

To me, beauty is about far far more than looks.

Happiness, confidence, being happy in one's own skin...so many things can contribute to a person's beauty.

Anorexia robs you of so much of this, I know from experience.

One of the best things you could ever give yourself is to work on your inner beauty, let yourself be happy and healthy, learn to love yourself.

I remember feeling as you did. The strange thing is, I look back at photos of me back in the bad days and listen to people say how much better I look now (believe me, I am certainly not thin anymore - my world did not collapse, I have a figure and curves and some peace from the demons and obsession and have so many other, far better things to fill my head with) and I'm actually at the point where I can see it myself.

Learn to let go of the obsession and control, fill it with other, better things which make you happy and which you drive, not the other way around. Freedom is a wonderful thing. It might not seem like it sometimes but you can take the control back.

It can take a lot of time and effort andcan be a long hard road but it is more than worth it and you can do it if you want to.

[Androcles]

Years ago, I had a girl who worked for me who was anorexic and she looked a mess. But after treatment and some support, she recovered, put some weight on and over a couple of years, out of the chrysalis emerged a beautiful butterfly. She married and has two equally pretty daughters. Don't be hard on yourself, you are still young and and have plenty of time to come out of your chrysalis. Work with the people who are trying to help you and your confidence will come.....

[society]

let's see a picture of you then we could tell you how beautiful you are and if you are anorexic or not.

[CelticAmethyst20]

"society"- are you saying that I'm lying?

[ummmm]

Celtic....I don't think she is. She's a nice lady. I think she would have meant it in the way that we would be able to see your beauty....something you're not seeing at the moment.

Don't post a pic.....