Am I A *** Person For Impulse Buying When I'm Upset?

[Cindy1302]

My grandparents left behind some money before they passed. Sometimes when I feel down, I'll drop large amounts of money on useless crap. For example, my mom just told me that she wasn't feeling well, so she went to the hospital and they found a spot on her kidney. She drinks a lot of liquor, and I wouldn't be super surprised if it is something serious. I just spent $300 online. I guess because it gives me something to look forward to and ups my mood? Idk. I feel like a bad person, because I know for a fact this isn't what my grandparents would want. 

[Tilly2]

What did you buy for your mom?

[Cindy1302]

I bought something for myself. That makes it even worse

[Khandro]

You seem to have self-diagnosed your problem. Now all you have to do is face up to it and stop doing it. 

[Tilly2]

Put it in a restricted access account that will stop you dipping into it willynilly.

[Old_Geezer]

It doesn't make you a bad person, maybe a foolish one.  You know it is a bad habit, you need to find other ways to lift your spirit that doesn't cost you much.

 

What hobbies do you have, and how do you relax when the stress isn't getting to you ? Why not listen to music ? Or maybe try meditation.  Try to think of other options for your list. Perhaps read, or watch a film on TV. Figure out a new look for yourself using your existing wardrobe & perhaps try a change of hairstyle (different that you can do yourself with a hairbrush rather than pay a fortune at a hairdresser's for).  Rearrange your room. Play with a pet. Whatever.

[barry1010]

Send the stuff back.

[RandyMarsh]

Could be a sympton of ADHD, must have, must have it - have it - don't use it.

[PsalmEquipt]

Here is some advice based on "Tasks Better Left Undone" in the book "How to Get Control of Your Time and Your Life."
Online shopping is a way to achieve temporary satisfaction. It's easy to do, and you get immediate results. Because of your grandparents' positive example, you are concerned about accomplishing what is useful. If you made a list prioritizing 10 things you need to do, online shopping would be near the bottom.
Your high-priority items are likely untried, uncertain, unknown, and new to you. Doing them also means taking risks and probably making mistakes. With this perspective, rise to the challenge and accomplish what you know is essential. https://archive.org/details/howtogetcontrol000lake