Isolation

[jennyjoan]

Went to CU tonight and found out one of my lovely colleagues wont' be there next cos chief has changed rota around again within 4 weeks.

Visited cousin - haven't been in her house in a a year - had to ask her to put her dark house on with a bit of light so that I could lipread her. She did with a bit of reluctance.

Do people not realise people who are deaf need light. That's is truly why I only go once a year if I do.

Sensitivity is no longer there any more and I never feel right in asking people to put their light on - etc etc. - I have a birthday coming up next month and I am loathing it - I truly wish I could disappear. Can't be doing with pressie I don't need - Christmas, birthdays - happy birthday - all a farce to me when you can't put a light on for somebody who is hundreds of years old. Come to my house and you would think it is Xmas every time. Hospitality constantly = would you like a sandwich, lemonade, water crisps. etc. - Nothing

She was bereft of a husband when she was due her second child to him - i helped her to get them reared - now no sensitivity. Feel not only her but nearly everybody has no respect or sensitivity to anything any more.

She has a friend who has done a massive extension for her and husband and I said that's brilliant but wouldn't you think they would downsize since there's only the two of - them - right away - wouldn't you think you could have done without a dishwasher since there is only one of you - I GIVE UP.


Is it worth your while helping people any more - not to me anymore and and don't start me on religion - when the girl was the immaculate conception holding the baby jesus on altar - and now living

[jennyjoan]

I must do that Islay - cut myself off the whole world. Behind all the black words on white paper there are so many other words that can not be bandied about on this post so Islay - always remember "walls have ears".

One great factor in my cousin's lighting - is will not put the lights cos she is a great saver of money. Even my cousin's daughter came in and told her mother to put the light on etc. Even when she puts it on - you can see her face getting all stiff etc - no I see her in HER house in once a year but she comes to me once a month and my house is like Xmas - no I don't definitely have the money she has cos I am not one bit thrifty.

I so thank Hans for his kind words but I am kind by nature it will always be with me - if there's anything in the house I can give ie lamp, ornaments, a cuppla hoovers - I gave them to my nephews last week and they were saying the hoover was fantastic - I thought it wasn't much suction - bless them - LOL to them.

A jeweller I knew made her own jewellery in America and loved these £4.99 earrings in my ears one night and begged me for them - off they came - she was over the moon. I loved these wee earrings too believe it or not - but off they came - she got them cleaned and was a happy woman. Ummmmm - in spite of your terrible impression of me I am not one bit commercial or materialistic = Islay - I know they have taken time out but it is usually money - and if you need money to turn a light on - then use it for your lighting. I had wonderful parties in my day Frid, Sat Sun and when I turned 60 I stopped the lot and I know many friends to this day miss those days. I had karaoke, fabulous, tried to tape myself singing with Nat and was able to put him and I onto a record, and of course Ireland is known for fabulous singers/harmonisers which are all on the video tapes for all and sundry to see. But I think a certain lady over 60 has to call it a day LOL.

[jennyjoan]

sorry Waterboatman - thanks for your kind words - but may I mention here I am not looking anything like that - I am just me - mind you there can be another side to me LOL